To be honest, sometimes I don't WANT to stop myself from binge-ing because I want to escape into it so badly. My accomplishments with losing 100 pounds, my good feelings about my appearance and all that stuff just seem to fade away so far I can barely see or feel them when I feel the binge monster building steam. And all I can think about is stuffing food down my throat to sedate the rampaging monster within.
Can I just say that this is the most eliquent, truthful statement I think I have ever read?! Thank you for writing this. It's exactly how I feel.
I'd also like to know how you can diet with an ED...I'm doing WW right now, and have lost almost 20 pounds, but the points thing became an obsession to me, and I had to stop it or else really make me an emotional wreck.
I'm so glad there are more out there that struggle like I do.
I mean, I wish we didn't have to struggle, but I'm glad someone else knows how it feels.