WOW, I just read your story. Congratulations on that loooonnng journey. I have learned that weight loss is a journey.
You talked alot about recipes, can you recommend an sites or cookbooks for a more natural way of cooking. I usually use the food network, eatingwell, and cooking light, but i think I am looking for something different.
BTW, I can't cook in a dirty kitchen either. I have to clean the whole thing prior to cooking. Frustrating, and time consuming, but it is a must!