Gained 4lbs instantly!
Well no, I didn't. But my family's scales say 140lbs, MY much newer ones say 144lbs, le sigh.
That's scales for you. Because I'm a masochist, I'll go with them. They are the ones *I* own anyway, so I won't have to go back to my family's to weigh if I just go with what they say.
Ideally, I'd like to be 120lbs. This means I have 24lbs to lose. This means therefore it'll take at least 12 weeks, and that's assuming a 2lb loss per week which isn't likely because I'm not starting from the "overweight" category.
Today is Day 2 of 1,500 calories and at least 30 mins exercise a day. Since I discovered Benefiber I am NOT passing out on less than 2,000 calories a day..I had a "false start" when I took it in 4 doses and not 2 (as in, I took 4 x teaspoons/day rather than 2 x 2 teaspoons a day, if you get me) and my tummy suffered! So now it's strictly as instructed.
HOWEVER, I've worked out that by Halloween, October 31st, I'll have done 99days of weight-loss efforts and should be a substantial way (at least half) towards this goal, assuming no big problems arising. I think I've tackled black and white thinking..even if I mess up sometimes, I think 90 days or whatever is loads better than lamenting how flawed I am and not getting anywhere.
I maintained 120lbs for over a year earlier in my teens without having to starve or over-exercise (and yes, I was pretty much the same height!), my problems began, I suppose, when I binge ate as a result of anorexia which took me down to 108lbs, I think.
Anyhow..I have a more realistic outlook about this now, I think. I'm not banning ANY foods, but I WILL remind myself that I'll be seriously hungry if I make poor choices and choose 4 cupcakes for 1500 calories and not healthy food throughout the day.
I'm trying not to weigh myself in general for a while because I'd like to focus on how I can FEEL slimmer and healthier and whatnot (trying to eat more vegetables too).
Having kicked the bingeeating monster for, what, gotta be 3 months now? I feel that providing I don't "BAN!" things, this won't spiral me back down.
That was long.
Well, I'm back.
Last edited by CousinRockingChair; 07-25-2008 at 12:16 PM.
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