Oh yeah. I know this feeling. I was 140 when I married my first husband and he was 155 and muscular. Through the marriage I got up to 220 or so and felt like a real moose beside him. He went from having a wife he could pick up and carry, to one who he could not even lift and inch.
My current husband was way bigger than me when we met and married but then he lost weight, I gained weight and I outweighed him by 20 pounds a year ago. I felt really bad about it. But now he outweighs me by 50 pounds. Anyway, I really think it is that society drills it into us that the female is supposed to be smaller/shorter/more petite than the male, and thats why we feel insecure about it. In reality, if your man is happy with you, you have to learn to accept it and be ok with it UNTIL you lose the weight.
Love yourself no matter what your size. Just keep focusing on getting healthier.
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