Mine is the same scenario. I started out with such great hopes for this South Beach Diet and I still feel that the diet is
exactly what I need in terms of my present and future health (ie; family history of diabetes and heart disease) but at the same time my life is just not "cooperating" with my motivation and desire!!
I have had to go off plan three separate times because the SBD-approved food ran out before we got paid and then our grocery bill has increased by 30% (not to mention my favorite store has also decided to increase their prices as well!) then I needed to fly home (986 miles away) and although my first meal of the day was OP---welll, the rest of the day was soda from the vending machine. If you're wondering why didn't I eat a meal elsewhere---I wanted to spend as much time with my mom as I could (they thought she was going to die a week ago) so eating was not high on my list. For six days, I ate mostly one meal a day and sugared soda. (My mom is in critical condition in an ICU). I couldn't afford to buy groceries in a different city. I was holed up in a motel room with the only other option was a continental breakfast (read: carbs and more carbs)!
Well, I returned home bloated, blue and I was afraid to get back on the scales. I finally got up enough courage to weigh myself yesterday. My heart sank. I had gained back almost everything I had lost from the first part of January. I hadn't gone to the bathroom for three days. I weighed again today and I had lost a couple of those bloated pounds.
I changed my ticker. I had to. One of my agreements with myself is I've got to be honest with myself and with you.
I want to lose weight once and for all and be posting on the maintenance thread so bad I could taste it. Right now, I feel like I will bobbing back and forth like this
forever. This is really hard to say but life sucks sometimes and sometimes our best laid plans go amuck.
SO, I began last night by making my Valentine's Day meal as a SBD approved choice and rebegan. I have eaten OP two meals already today. I hope to go back to see my family at Easter and I have four and a half weeks to figure out how I will be able to stay OP.
I'm sorry you're hurting but I hope you know that we know how you feel and we are here for you.