So yesterday I walk out of the house with my husband. He was leaving for work and I for my class. We kissed good bye. As I walked to my car which was parked on the street, I hear "Earthquake" yelled from across the street. There were probably about 4 or 5 kids of various ages ranging from probably 10 years old to early teens (15 years old at the very very most). I look back and am trying to figure out if they were yelling that at me. I mean logically I am thinking, ok there's no way in **** they could be talking to me, I am not overweight anymore, maybe chunky but surely not someone that would cause someone to say "earthquake" as I walk. But I haven't been able to get it out of my head. I will truly never know if they were yelling that at me of if it was something that they were just talking about, who knows. But I am so hurt at the thought not only that someone would yell that, no matter what size I was, but that I could still be a size that kids consider so fat that in their minds I am causing an earthquake as I walk. I've been feeling so much more confident lately and this just totally blew that out the window for me! I feel kind of silly about this but it has made me feel very self conscious! Am I being totally paranoid or could they really have been talking to me!?!?!?!
That mentality can be so hard to overcome....
but I agree also. you aren't overweight. Especially not to the point that even the cruelty of teenagers would be directed at you. I was chunky (about 150) in high school, and didn't grow out of my baby fat until I was about 19 or 20. I know that's a little old to call it baby fat-it's because without dieting or trying to lose, I got down to about 115 pounds. Someone I knew from school saw me in Walmart one day and commented on how much skinnier I was, and it really caught me off guard-as in I still didn't consider myself skinny, and how fat did all of my friends think I was back then? Point is-what was supposed to be some sort of compliment ended up hurting my feelings because of the mentality I still carried with me from being the chubby girl in school.
There is no way that anyone could think a 5'6" woman weighing 147 lbs was overweight. Who knows what they meant, but it could not have been directed at your size.
I agree with everyone - it definitely wasn't directed at you! I totally understand where you're coming from, though - I still have a hard time getting past the idea that people are laughing at me - whenever I pass people and hear them laugh I'm convinced that they're making comments about how fat I am. We saw your wedding pictures, though - there's no way that comment was directed at you - you're gorgeous!
I can assure you (I've seen pictures!) that they were not referring to you! It's hard to shake the big girl mentality sometimes (I still deal with it), but like julibee says, chin up!
"Earthquake!" Were they talking to me????
You've worked too hard to feel bad about yourself!
