My brother, who just turned 20, lost a great deal of weight over the past few years, like over 100 lbs. It's great that he did that and I'm happy for him, but he is a really vain guy (he's a 20 year old male, afterall!) and he loves to talk about how much weight he's lost at every given opportunity. Plus, not to minimize his effort or anything, but he wasn't fat his whole life, just a few years, so it seems like him returning to that state is easier than for me, becoming thin when I've never been thin. Whenever we see my extended family, his weight loss always gets brought up (often he brings it up himself), and he glowingly tells everyone about it, and they gush... and I sit there feeling like the *hugest* person ever.
Anyway, I saw a friend of mine last night, he said he had seen my brother and he noticed how much weight he had lost and blah blah blah. I've lost almost 50lbs but it's obviously not noticeable yet to most people, and not to this friend. And it just made me sad, like am I ever going to not be the fat girl? fat sister? fat friend?
In May, I'm going to a big family reunion type event. And I know, no one is going to notice my weight loss... it just isn't dramatic enough to notice at this point. Everyone's gonna gush over my brother. My older sister's gonna be there too, and she likes to brag about how much weight she's lost, even though it's not really noticeable on her and she's not a very healthy person. I don't want to bring up my weight loss unless it's noticed, and no one's gonna notice.... so I'm gonna be the fat loser again.
Anyway I just needed to vent about this!
envious of my thin brother (vent)
