Paranoia
That spelling is so wrong, but meh.
A big part of the reason I'm trying to get healthy and fit, is because of my softball. I play quite a high level of rep and love it. My team I play in, quite simply sucks, and my coach has told us we know have to trial as they might have some more girls from another association. Now I know this woman has a huge issue with my weight, and resulting lack of speed, and I'm now aboustly paranoid that she's not going to pick me. Its just this feeling in my bones. Now cause I'm having this frustration with the scales, and I KNOW there's no way I can get substantially faster in two weeks, but its easy done by the time this comp starts. I'm going to be devestated if they do this to me. It might be a lot of worry for nothing, but I'm terrified it might not be.
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