Back here for probably the millionth time in 4 or 5 or however many years (how do you check that?!). And man, I'm sooooo close I can taste it. My highest weight ever was 191 or thereabouts, I'm not actually sure, as few of us really are. I've been on a very slow downward slope since then. Though I've had a constant struggle with my weight and body acceptance since I was young, I've been consistently (though slowly) losing weight since 2011. At the moment I probably weigh 150 or so. I've seen everything from 148 to 156 on the scales recently. I'll get an accurate weight in the morning for posterity's sake.
So what am I doing back here?! Other than the fact that I'm in my potentially last 15 pounds or so, I figured I would check on my girls to give and get some moral support. It's always nice to have some accountability, or at least have somewhere to vent to people that understand what I'm going through.
The plan - I randomly walked into the gym by my house today. I wanted to see what there $9 enrollment fee had to offer, plus two of my good girlfriends have been going a lot recently, so I figured why not. I actually really liked the place and the people were very friendly. It wasn't packed at all for 4:30 on a weekday - a time I'll be likely to go. Plus, they have a few workout classes I would like to do, like boot camp, several yoga sessions a week and a cardio challenge. I want to incorporate lifting, so I found a good plan online called the ultimate female training guide that gives me daily workouts. I have to have a plan, because I crave that structure.
Other News - Struggling very badly with anxiety. I go to the doctor tomorrow, so I hope that whatever I decide to go on doesn't cause weight gain and can help me feel like I have control over my life again. And I'm worried I have mild strep, which my friend who I just went out of town with. I can feel my lymph nodes swelling. :-/
Anyhooooo - hellur to everyone here.
Guess who's back :)
