It helps me to look at all the things purging will eventually do to you.
When I was younger I purged quite a lot for a few months, but was also counting calories and eventually lost weight. You could say I lost the weight before it turned into a real ED, with all the mental issues and what-not. EDs tend to rarely be about weight loss. It's usually about something deeper, mentally.
But I just see it as a slow suicide. I suggest you start journaling, meditating, take a hot bath, take a look at some of the way bulimia eventually kills it's victims. Be careful of internet support sites for anorexia and bulimia, because they usually are full of girls who still have the ED are not looking for help. I suggest finding that place in you that believes you can have peace. It doesn't have to be religious or anything.
I one read something that really helps me during stress. It goes something like this.
Stressed?
Can you do anything about it?
-No> Then why worry?
-Yes> Then why worry?
It was actually a picture when I saw it, but I always remember it now when I feel the stress building up.
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