I've regained 25lbs and can't get myself motivated to start losing it again. I feel like hiding because I'm way bigger then even 2 months ago. I've put on 15lbs in 2 months and it's still going up because I can't seem to gain control over my need to constantly be eating.
I'm getting seriously depressed because I wake up everyday with good intentions, manage to hold on for most of the day, then I end up binging. It makes no sense. I can't even understand what is going on in my head when I give up like that.
It's so much harder now because I feel like all the effort I put in before has gone to waste and I have to start again and that any weight I lose now is not going to feel anywhere as good as when I was in t
hose lower numbers.
I remember how good I felt when I was running every other day, now i'm afraid to go run because I will see exactly how far back my fitness has slid. My clothes are all so tight now and look awful but I refuse to buy bigger because it would be like giving in to this extra weight.
I'm totally stuck and not sure how to get my motivation back for weight loss. It feels like it gets harder everytime and i'm going to lose this battle. My brain needs rewiring but I can't seem to find to tools to do it.
Can anyone lend me some advice?