Ok so just needed somewere to vent and have a rant and share something that taught me a wee lesson...
Four things have happened to me this week 3 negative and 1 positive but all have pushed me foward in my weight loss "Journey"
Firstly there I was walking along the street minding my own business going to work and was approaching a group of teenage boys for some reason this made me nervous and I felt something was coming as I passed them one of them kindly decided to inform me "wow your a beast, you really should be hitting the gym or something" (little did the little s**t no i'd busted my *** for 3 hours at the gym that day!) it was sooo hurtful I couldnt even reply i just carried on walking shame burning tears stinging all that Jazz! played on my mind all night!
My second humiliating experience came just 2 days later walking along the same street I turned the corner and heard a man (yeah a man not a boy) bellowing HAWl CHUBBY, naturally i turned around just cause id heard someone shouting and he looks directly at me and goes "YEAH YOU" to which him and his friend fall into fits of giggles, again the humilation stung, but more worryingly I actually felt some relief that all he said was CHUBBY it seemed much more complimentry than "BEAST" (how pathetic eh? grading your insults and being HAPPY that this one was less insulting)
lastly, just a few days later i was out with my boyfriend and he pulled me onto his knee, to which some passing charmer decided to comment "WOW MATE YOU ALRIGHT UNDER THERE" by this stage id literally had enough and promptly got up went to the toilet and sobbed.
By this point i was starting to feel sorry for myself thinking whats even the point im trying my hardest hear and everyone seems to want to come down on me why me blah blah...THEN the positive went to my class yesterday feeling positivly down and i'd lost 2 1/2 lbs (even after a crazy eating binge to try and make me feel better) It made me think, BUGGER THEM ALL im trying im doing this for me!! and im going to do it!! So world throw everything you want at me NOTHING is going to stop me!
For anyone who is reading this stay positive and dont let anyone get you down! we're all beautiful in our own ways! and anyone who wants to bring you down is only trying to make themselve feel better and really their more to be pitied than cursed!
Kerry x