Hi everyone! It has been a very long time since I last posted on my blog, now I find out that I can't post a new entry. Which is disappointing for me.
But reading through it has made me realise just how much has changed in my life, and how many of the goals that I set out for myself have actually happened. Here is a run down of my silly goals. 7 out of 9 goals have happened. Although I have no doubt that in the near future I shall have a body to rival Kim Kardashian and I'll be able to fit into my sisters dress.
1) I want a bikini body to rival Kim Kardashian
2) I want to be able to walk up a hill without having to stop to ‘check my phone’
3) I don’t want food to rule my life
4) I want to enjoy nights out and not feel like an overgrown lump of lard next to my shorter, slimmer friends (its the reason I refuse to dance)
5) I want to show my ex exactly what he’s missing
6) I want slim toned arms, I hate my bingo wings.
7) I want to be able to eat in public and not feel like people are judging me
8) I want to prove to myself I can do it. I’ve never been very good and seeing things like this through.
9) I want to be able to wear a UK size 12 (US size 8 I think) by my 23rd birthday which is 30th October 2011.
10) Finally, I want to be able to wear my sisters dress (see my first post).
Firstly, I'll start with the physical changes. I have gone from weighing 16st 7lb (231lbs) in March 2011 to 12st 6lbs (174lbs) as of now. That means I've lost about 4st (56lbs) since last march (although as my ticker says I've lost over 90lbs over 3years) and am only 14lbs from my new Doctor approved goal of 160lbs. My new measurements are waist: 29inches, Hips: 40inches, bust:38inches, under-bust:30inches. I'm also now wearing UK size 12 (US size 10 I think) although that varies from shop to shop sometimes I have to go up to UK size 14 in jeans, but other than that I am mostly a size 12. Which means I have now dropped 2 sizes. I never thought I'd get to this stage, it felt like i'd be dieting forever! I don't quite rival Kim Kardashian just yet, but give me a few months and we'll see!
I also have a wonderful boyfriend now. We've been together just over 5months and he's so completely different to my ex, who is a shallow idiot. He's supportive of whatever I choose to do. He encourages me to make healthy choices and to exercise without being pushy with me. If people push me the metaphorical ears go back, my heels dig in, and my stubborn streak comes out to play.
I'm now employed. I work for a supermarket chain. Its not my dream job, but given the current market I am grateful to have it. Far to many young people are unemployed through no fault of their own. The best thing about my job is my 10% staff discount, which has made dieting easier as its cheaper for me to buy good healthy food. as a perk of my job I also get a corporate discount at my local gym.
I'm also now training to be a journalist. I am using a home correspondence course so I can fit it around work.
As a bit of an update. I did complete my 10Km race for life. I power walked it in 1hr 31 mins. I now plan to do the 5km version, and I intend to run it within 45mins maximum.
So all in all my life is on the up. Last year I had no self-confidence, no social life, no job, and no boyfriend. While my weight didn't completely cause that, it did contribute a fair amount. Its amazing how losing weight has transformed me. I don't feel uncomfortable in social situations, I don't feel like I stick out at family gatherings (they are all slim), I feel like I can do anything I put my mind too. I am going to try and not sound like a cliched therapist, but if I can do all that in a year. A person who was morbidly obese, had non-existent confidence, an angry streak, and very little to recommend her to a potential employer/friends/man. Then absolutely anyone can. The best part is that my journey still isn't over. I am still going to work hard to lose the last few lbs, and transform my life even more.