Bah the last 2-3 weeks I've been teeter tottering between 147-150lbs and can't seem to move down in the scale. But that's not what's been bothering me because I've hit plateus before.
next Wednesday me and my boyfriend are going to a Dubstep show, kind of like a rave but not as crazy. We have known about about this show for about 2 months and back then I though "man I have some time to lose a little more weight!" If you have never been to a show like this, well I'll just say its lots of dancing and the less clothes the better. The first time I went to one I just wore some jeans, t shirt and jacket and almost got a heat stroke lol. This time I really wanted to wear just a lose tank top and a skirt but ugh I really don't think I can pull it off. I definately would not feel comfortable with myself and yes I would be a lot fresher but I know no matter what those stupid insecurities will creep up on me. I know that some girls would kill to be my size but its just I had hoped to be a little bit smaller by now and i feel dumb for not buckling down back when I first knew about this. UGH. Because honestly I was somewhat easy on myself because I kept thinking "oh I still have 1 month, oh I still have 3 weeks" ect
Yeah I just needed to rant this out