The bottom line is he grew up, and I should be the bigger person and really, really need to quit waiting for the apology that is never coming.
Gosh, you had to cope with a lot at a young age!
I'm not so sure he grew up. Grew older maybe. Grew UP, who knows?
But thank goodness it isn't you having to deal with it any more finding out if he did or didn't! He sounds like a mess.
But yeah... don't be waiting for an apology that may never come from someone who has a track record like that. I'm not saying miracles NEVER happen, but don't be holding your breath over it.
Focus on your own self and your own life and happiness.
Don't water weeds -- they get overgrown all over. Pull it out and plant something better in your heart garden.