Well, I've been trying to get back on track for a while now, but I'm having serious problems.
I have successfully lost 70 pounds in the past....and I have gained it all back now, but I KNOW that I can lose it again (plus more). The only thing that I really think is holding me back is something you wouldn't expect to be a bad thing....happiness.
The last time, I was unhappy in my relationship and then I was single....I was going through a point in my life when nothing was going my way and I knew I needed to change. I was miserable....and in that misery I found my motivation to lose weight....to make myself happy. I went from 251 to 180, and I was so happy. I was the lowest weight I had ever been in my adult life, and everything seemed perfect. Then I got with my current boyfriend (who I have now been dating for a year and a half), and the pounds started creeping back on. I was so happy that I didn't care. I've been best friends with this guy for 8 years and liked him the whole time but was always to scared to tell him...and then I found out he had liked me the whole time too. I wish I had known that when we went to prom together senior year (as friends) and pretty much avoided each other the whole night. I would have just walked up to him and danced with him...but whatever. The point is that I love him and he makes me happy and he loves me for who I am RIGHT NOW. I've gained that 70 pounds back since I've been dating him....and it hasn't bothered him. He's put on a few pounds too...and it doesn't bother me. We're perfect for each other and I don't think our appearances changing has changed that at all.....
Here lies my dilema. It is SO DIFFICULT to find the motivation to get back on track when I'm already happy. I have the perfect job, the perfect boyfriend, I don't think I've ever been happier then this before...and I'm so comfortable with myself. I've never been one of those super self-conscious fat girls. I don't walk around in clothes someone my size shouldn't be wearing...but at the same time I am comfortable in almost anything. I don't feel as big as I know I look. On the inside and in my mind I am a skinny girl, and so my size has never bothered me. It's hard to find the motivation to lose the weight when I'm so happy and confident. I just don't know how to motivate myself to get back on the right track....because at this point I just don't care. I'm happy.
Any advice would be GREATLY appreciated.