i've been having a rough time the last few days... weeks.. months.. years... ok.. well.. it sucks to be me.... anyway.. im having a hard time.. gfetting and staying motivated. i want this sooo bad... but i really just don't think i can do it... its too hard!!!! (okok.. no negativity) i mena.. i believe in your guys.. all of u... and i try to encourage u all as much as i can... but i just.. i can't do it for myself.. maybe its just not the right time.. but when is? i mean.. i don't want to waste my youth.. and im not really.. im vibrant, and fun... its just too hard. sometimes i fel like a recovering alcoholic.. in the world of drinkers! ... my friends are great... but... none of them know what its like! u know?
but im trying to stay optimistis..trying is the oprative word here!
well.. im outie!
Never frown! You never know who is falling in love with your smile!
and i've got a kickass smile :P