I know what you mean about feeling like an alcoholic! Food is definately an addiction! For a long time I didnt' even try to lose weight because I thought what was the point, I wouldn't stick to it. But I believe that we can do anything we put our mind to! Take everything one day at a time. I know I'm not going to lose my 50lbs immediately, but I just remember how proud I am of myself when I stick to my diet all day, and how good I feel after I exercise when I want to give up and reach for the bag of cookies! Be strong! I know you can do it!