Hey ladies. You know how we all love that day when we finally start to see definition in our collars... I think that started happening to me around 210 lbs... it was just starting to poke out.
I went for awhile enjoying it and not realizing how much more it was beginning to poke out, but now at 186, it's really starting to GROSS me out! I'll go to itch my neck or something and feel it poking out there, and I can like hook my finger around it and all.
It's like... I have been fat all my life. I never remember feeling bones like that before. I know that while I continue to lose weight, this bone will poke out more, and there will BE more bones, but for heavens sake this is ridiculous... the grossed out feeling that I get when I touch my bone. I look at pictures of thinner people and see thinner people and know that their bones stick out too, and that there are certain bones that are not SUPPOSED to be buried under fat or muscle.
I'll admit I get the same feeling when I hug my very thin friends. The bones. Haha...
Urg... it's so awkward to be losing squishiness...
Does anybody else have awful mournful feelings of the loss of squishiness at times?
I mean, there is nothing that would stop me from trying to lose this weight and be healthy now. I really want that. It's just soooo different. I've always been obese so I don't know myself at this stage, even though I am still well overweight.