my struggle& my future( need to get it out of my head)

[SnowWolf]

phew...

Justwant2Bhealthy- I'm not offended by anyone. But exactly. Exactly. Oh, thank you. That's sweet of you. My hand is thrown in it alright. That's very true about it flowing into another...my intuition keeps telling me that's exactly what is going to happen with my painting and writing. I'd love to sale paintings for charity, when I'm stable in acting. Found a foundation for all kind of things, writing too. How wounderful it would be to do something you love, and to give love from it. <3 It would fulfill one of my missions in life, to help the world. I can still do things now...but I know I can do even bigger things in the future. Travel, become a humanitarian. I want to work behind the camera also, later on. Thank you. (Is your name Rose by the way?)
yes, yes. I'll remember that. God is always here with me, without him I would be nothing. I'm just here to do what I'm here to do. <3
Thank you again. I know how odd it must be, but I will.

junebug41-Thank you for wishing me the best. I appresiate it. Oh gez. I'm a big masochist in that sense. Gesh. Oh man, it is very sad to see that happen to someone. My parents have shown me what happens when you don't fallow your dreams. My mom says something about her realistate job everyday. sigh. It's almost a nightmare for me to live thier lives out. So my natural instincts always have tugged me the other way.

Thank you for the awesome advice. Wow...that's very very admirable. I agree, I should become as educated as possiable. It's all about the long, odd journey. I'm so happy for you, that your doing what you love. I hope you know your a good role model for people around you. Congrats!
Isn't that wounderful and awe-inspiring? Looking back into your 16 year old mind, and going ..."wow man oh man. Look at me." That deeply moves me. So when you fallow a dream it brings you to place that make us the happiest. Awww...so moving, just getting the change to live and love out loud, is worth more then all the money.
Haha, thank you for your blessing. I hope you become even more blessed threw out the rest of your life. My life will not be.
It will look even better.

shasha12- Aww, I'm sorry. I can relate in a way. I know how that feels. I know...that's why I'm alittle confused. I'm not a practical person, I do everything backwards. But I'm slowly putting the jigsaw peaces together. I wish I could give you a hug, it's part of my soul too. It just is. You understand how deep of a feeling that is, right? Yes, thank you. I do have to love myself, or I'm a goner. I do though, just enough to not be torn apart. I accually feel I'll be very whole. I know. It wouldn't feel new to my life, just a continuation of it. I'll be happy to except it. Thank you, it has.
Thank you.

sunflowergirl68- Well I know, I can't just live on the street. I do have to make sure I can at least have the essentials. I'll figure it out. I'm still growing as a person, I'm just begining to understand myself, and listen to my inner voice. It's a loud one. That's great that your still doing what you love, no matter what I plan to do them all. I feel exactly the same way. I think it would be hard to accually part with my future works, but if it can help get some money to survive on, I think I would, besides that I do it for me too. I don't know what it's like to give away paintings( except family), I would want to keep them all. It would be fun to have a gallery. Have you concidered that?
I respect your views. <3 I can't just be in lala land, I have to be grounded in some ways. Enough to pay the bills is all. Well, usually most actors started during childhood. Thank you for speeking your mind, I will go research more actors.

Latchkey Princess- I don't think I'll ever be very realistic anyway. Yeah, I am. I know I must, with ALL OF ME. I really do know, thats extremly damn importent. Thank you very much. <3

stellarosa27-Thank you, that means much to me.


Skyra-Thank you for keep writing. It's really nice to hear. Awww, there is good jobs out there. Yes, practice is vital, right. Gotcha. Thank you, and good luck! You'll get published.

shasha12-Thank you Shasha. Go knock them out.


To all, thank you.
My actions will speak louder then my words.
You'll have that," Oh my god." moment one day.

[sunflowergirl68]

Originally Posted by Latchkey Princess

And sunflowergirl, it's 100% doable to not go to college and still live a pretty good life, and a fufilling life at that, doing what you love. Neither my husband nor I went to college, he works and I stay at home with our two kids, and we own a house, a car, and have some money in savings. Sure we do without the premium cable channels, and we eat alot of ramen and we don't have all the fancy stuff in life. Our income even puts us on the borderline of poverty, but we're happy. Because we're doing the things we want to do. And in my (eternally optimistic) opinion that's what matters.

Oh I know, but if definitely makes things a lot easier to get a high-paying job. I say that if you have the opportunity to do it, I say go for it. it is important if you have high aspirations.

[sunflowergirl68]

Originally Posted by Skyra

I, like nearly everyone else, was forced to be "practical" and find a full-time job. But you know what? That's fine. I work with autistic kids full-time, and it's a job I thought I would hate, but now I love it. I love those kids. And I'm good at it... which I never, ever thought would happen! I used to think I would never be happy with anything but writing, but I was wrong. "Practical" does not always equal "soul-sucking" or "giving up on your dreams". I have enough money to support myself completely, which is wonderful. And I still have enough time to write, and to keep trying to get published.

That's what I was trying to reiterate by having a back-up plan. And I am positive that being a college graduate helped you get that job you have now, and that's what I was trying to say before.... you can still pursue your goals and dreams but you have to be practical about it, and have skills that will help you earn a living in the meantime.

I want to work for a publisher and work as an editor, but for the time being, I have to work retail. And I hate to say it, but having a degree helped me get this job. If an employer is looking at two different applications, both are qualified, but one went to college, they're going to most likely hire the applicant who went to college. It's just a fact of life. People discriminate.

Holding that degree might not directly help you get published (and I'm sure that your classes and professors helped improve and hone your writing skills) but it will help you earn a living. That's just how it is.

So to the OP, if you have the chance, go to college. Major in theatre. Minor in something else like business administration or something like that.

[SnowWolf]

sunflowergirl68- Ok. I see. I have to admit I was being thick headed back there, I'm sorry sunflower. Can you forgive me? I agree with her also, kind of a misunderstanding I think. That's what I'm going to do in my future. =)

[SnowWolf]

ummm...it feels kind of funny to see this again. I've grown alittle since I've posted it. I've decided to go to theatre 2, I can't wait to grow as an actress, I feel good with the derection I'm going in. I'm excited, I don't know what the future holds. But it's all good. I have a book idea, I'll start writing but just for fun and see were that goes. I also can't wait to go into painting next school year!!!! That's what I'm really looking forward to, I'm a starved painter right now! I can't wait to blow them away! I'll have to show you guys when I paint them!

[reagansquad]

Best of luck, work really hard... the best advice I ever got was to find out what successful people did to get where they are and do that.

[sunflowergirl68]

Originally Posted by SnowWolf

I have a book idea, I'll start writing but just for fun and see were that goes. I also can't wait to go into painting next school year!!!! That's what I'm really looking forward to, I'm a starved painter right now! I can't wait to blow them away! I'll have to show you guys when I paint them!

I think that's a fantastic idea. Get your plot points down, your story, do characterizations, etc. The trick with writing is that you have to write entire histories for your main characters or else they'll seem empty when you do write your book. (That's a problem I had with Twilight.... as I said in another thread, the characters just seem like hollow shells because I don't think the writer fleshed out their histories).... they have to become real people in a way. And it takes a long time to write a book and I suggest to set aside an hour a day to write.

As for painting, why not start now? I painted at home in my backyard in high school and I enjoyed it. I also took extra classes at a local art college on the weekends. If you really want to get good at painting, you have to master drawing first and I got really good by drawing the human figure. And it's weird at first seeing a nude model but I got over it pretty quickly.

Just take things one day at a time. But keep doing what you love.

[LisaTcan]

Hey!
I say go for it! I'm 24 and I studied theater at a performing arts high school and music at university. After school I got an agent and acting professionally for 2 years. I was miserable..I love performing but I hated auditioning and waitressing and being poor..all the bull sh%t that comes along with being an actor. I was a size 4-6 at the time which is huge in the acting world and it made my eating disorder (I was bulimic) spiral out of control.

I'm now going back to school for my Master's in social work..I found some thing that makes me just as happy and that lifts me up rather then brings me down.

HOWEVER, I've been friends with and had two boyfriends who were actors and they loved it enough to be put up with the lifestyle. They're in their 30's and still at it..but success in that industry is bit parts on TV and commercials.

I am sooooo glad I did it though, I experienced it and figured out it wasnt all I thought it would be. I would have regretted it if I hadn't tried it out. Follow your dream, you'll probably change and grow as you get older but at least you'll have given it a shot.

xo Lisa

[SnowWolf]

reagansquad-Thank you, that's good advice. I have all that I need already, now it's all about knowing the next step.

sunflowergirl68- Yes! I have my plot points down, I did that awile ago. You know what else is wierd about the twilight author, I read that she writes all the big events first and then fells in the rest after. I think that is horriable. Thank you , thank you-yes I need to write thier histories. This would take alot of work, but I'll be happy when it's done. It is very rough-I mean I'm only 17, but with age it will grow in my opinion, so I believe in it. Yeah, hollow shells. I've only got a vauge idea of the two main characters, I need to write thier histories...other characters are still fuzzing, don't even know yet-I just have the big idea-the whole point of the book down, it's not about love exactly but focusing more on the human spirit, good and bad. Self-discovery. Who we are and the world in general. I hope that doesn't give to much away. I mean I didn't explain anything. But I'm very excited, alot will be very personal to me. I just want to make sure I don't dumn it down in anyway. I'm going to have to focus on writing it for myself.

oh, you know what's cool I've been working on drawling natiri (sp) from avatar. That's true, I took drawling classes for alittle when I was little. I've painted alot when I was younger. I want to paint now, I don't have the supplies though. For my b-day I'm asking for a giftcard to Aron Brothers. But yeah, even though my ego is saying I'm great already, it is true that it is possiable to get even better. That would be an awesome class to take in collenge. For sure.
One day at a time. That's exactly what I need to do. Thank you, I'm slowing getting there. One day at a time.

[SnowWolf]

LisaTcan- oh my godness. I'm so sorry, that's horriable.
I'm sorry you ever had to go threw that.
...That's great about what your doing now, I'm glad you are doing something that makes you happy, that's all that counts. Yep, I'm for sure giving it a shot and much more then that too. Thank you Lisa.