So last night I finally realized I can't keep thinking I will be able to control my eating around my bf even though the past suggests that I can't. So I decided to talk with him about my struggles. Here is how it went...
Me- "Can I talk to you about something?"
Me- "I've decided to start eating healthier but I find that whenever I'm with you it's almost impossible for me. I don't know what it is. Honestly, I'm worried about coming home when school is out because we'll be spending more time together and therefore eating more. I don't know if its because I want to eat whatever you're having or what, but I would really like your help."
Him- "Okay, I can do that. How do you want me to help you?"
Me- "I feel bad asking but I think the best solution for me is if you ate healthier things with me, at least when we're together. Because I usually have good intentions in trying to decide what to eat but it's really hard not to have some when you're snacking on chips and salsa, or making frozen pizza..."
Him- "Okay.. if I do that will you take the lead in selecting healthy things for us to eat?"
Me- "Yes I can come up with stuff for us to have"
I also made sure to mention that if I'm about to make a bad decision it hurts my feelings when he says things like "Are you sure you want that???!" Even though I know he's just trying to help, it would be better if he found a nicer way to say it...He felt bad saying that he's been putting all this bad food in front of me and that he's been selfish. I made sure to let him know its not his fault, and I just want him to know how he can help me be successful in meeting my goals.
Now I am feeling much better about coming home, and I'm really hoping we stick to this. Being around my bf is almost a guarantee I won't stay OP so hopefully this fixes that!