I was cleaning my closet out the other day and noticed a big pile of dark blue fabric. Then I discovered it was a bridesmaid's dress I'd worn at my friend's wedding 2 years ago. Then I remembered it is the exact same size as the one I ordered for my sister's wedding this July. I am down 10 pounds from where I was then, but on a 5'11" frame that doesn't equate to nearly anything inches wise.
So for the last 2 years I've been coming up with all sort of stupid excuses as to why I can't eat healthy or why I can't exercise , and that I had plenty of time to lose the weight (I'm a horrible procrastinator in all aspects of life). I was determined last October to be at goal by my sister's wedding. Now it's 2 months away, so obviously that won't be happening. I'm really regretting that I won't be able to look back at these pictures and see a hot, skinny me. I don't really care what the guests will think of the tall bridesmaid with huge legs (not that anyone will be looking at me anyway, thank goodness), but I wanted to be happy with the way I looked.
Then this morning as I'm eating my leftover Chinese food (a plate full of nothing but fried chicken in a sweet/spicy orange sauce. Not a veggie to be found) I said to myself "After work, I'll buy a ton of fruits and veggies for the week. I only have exams left and then there are no excuses as to why I can't eat right because of school." Then I thought about how many times over the last 2 years it's been "Tomorrow I start trying to lose weight again" or "Monday is a good day to start eating better". How stupid. Especially since I love fruit and veggies. So it's not like I'll be torturing myself by eating more of them. Today I'm determined to actually go and do what I said I'm going to do, and stick with it. So by the fall semester I'll hopefully be at or very close to my goal weight. We'll see what actually happens...