So, ok, I started at grad school a while ago and class participation counts as part of your grade. I have a thing about speaking up in class as I'm self concious and I HATE it. But know what? I've been doing it! So my school is really rather small and the professors make a point of learning everyone's name. Guess the only person's name they haven't remembered? Yup, mine! Ugh! Seriously, one prof just points at me and smiles (she calls on everyone else by name-even the people who NEVER talk) and the other called me by a completely different name altogether (again, he knows everyone else's name-even those who never talk).
So then this guy-who I sincerely disliked before and now just kinda hate, was talking to a group of my friends who mentioned me. And he didn't know who I was! I mean, I sit with my group of friends everyday...and he's friends with them too. So he sees me sitting with them, we've had a conversation or two, and he couldn't remember me. And then today, another guy, who I've talked to and worked with in class was like, "wait you're in this class too?" and then was all like well it's ok bc it's not like you know my name...and then i was like actually I do (it's a unique name which is why I remembered it). And he was like now I feel like an @ss. To which I said, you should...we're two classes with 20 people and we've worked together!
But seriously, I'm starting to get a complex. It's like I don't exist. Not important enough to remember....sigh. I was talking to my friends today and they said that I'm getting prettier like everyday. Which I tried to tell them that it was a compliment for them to say so, but basically they were saying that I'm fat/ugly and no one remembered me before because of this (specifically guys) and now that I'm losing the weight (esp in my face) guys are starting to notice me. Which is like...is this supposed to make me feel better? I don't know, it's just making me sad and reaffirming those feelings I have in my head, kwim?
Has anyone else had anything like this happen to them before? Or am I the only invisible girl on the board?