....morning all. I made the unwise decision to drink a bit last night. I deserved it tho, I haven't gone out with friends in ages. Even so, I'm feeling it this morning.
Was 157 when I stepped on the scale this morning... unfortunately, I can't know for sure how much of that is real losses, and how much is dehydration from the alcohol consumption, lol... as a result, I'm just gonna leave the ol' ticker at 158, and see how we're doing over the course of the next couple of days.
How very much I wish the pounds would just slip and fall off my body... things are rocky right now with the irish boy, because of the long distance, and the txting communication, and it makes me feel depressed and like all these weight-loss efforts are not worth it.
Bekko:
Ohhh, the relationship = fast-food trap. God, what a pain. It's like by them convincing you that you should go to McDonald's, it's making it okay with your guilt censors. Bad news bears!
Welcome! And stick around, it's good for the motivation.
Stephie:
*sigh* So true. Things are really rough right now, and he's being such a boy. He doesn't txt me very often (which is our only option right now cos we're both so busy) and then I get upset. And he just thinks I'm being crazy and irrational.
Which, perhaps I am, but I'm a chick, so I'm allowed. As my friend always says... Girls are crazy, and guys are stupid.
And.. when you have a cyst that erupts, you don't have to go to the gym. I think that's one of those "unwritten rule" type things.
RHTS:
It's hard to stay OP if you forget to pack yourself something healthy and planned-out! Ah well, not worth beating yourself up over, eh?
Bella:
Awww, you're so sweet! Thanks darlin. YAY, I'm so glad you got Stumbleupon, isn't it amazing?? Totally crazy stuff. I could spend hours with it. In fact, I do sometimes when I'm bored, lol.
Talking to your friends... eesh. If it's anything like talking to MY friends, I can see how that would've been incredibly unhelpful. It's like when you talk to people about weight loss... who have never had weight issues, or aren't interested in weight loss themselves... they act like it's this horrible taboo subject and get really awkward when I bring it up. I even sometimes have people give me really concerned "You're dieting?" type looks, like they think that "diet" equates to starving myself or something?
That's what we're for! People who understand if you wanna have a detailed conversation about water retention, and how your TOM affects the number on the scale... to talk about the things that would make OTHER people think you're nuts.
GOOD for you for deciding to really throw the motivation into it!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
HWGA:
Lol, you made me curious. I looked up a pic of 5 lbs of fat, and WOW is that ever sexy lookin, eh?
Congrats on the losses, you!! When your jeans start to feel loose, you know you're on the right track.
OOH! And 270s!! Hey, GO you!!! Fluke or not, if your body's at a point where it can fluke into the 270s, it can't be that far from dipping right into 'em!!! YAY!!! Congrats!
Elwing:
Happy belaaaated! I'm super proud of you for not sampling too much of the cake while you were making it. I can't remember where or when you said that, but in my mind, I was thinking, "She's got the willpower of Superman..." And also, well done on staying OP over your birthday, that takes effort!
And... ooo, that's so nice of your parents to talk about that as a gift! That's fantastic motivation! How awesome.
Wow girls! I can't believe how much I miss you guys.
So here's the deal with my vacation, we walked a lot, tried new and interesting foods (Chocolate Cheese anyone?), Beer (Yuck, yuck, yuck), and wines (still can't find an alcohol I like.) For whatever reason I expected to have lost this morning. I don't know why I would ever think that. *sigh* I am still 264 but I gained .4 pounds. I guess that is really good compared to what I could've gained..... Hubby was really supportive. He had to save me from stomping my scale to death... I got in one good shot before he picked it up!
New chicks- WELCOME! We are glad to have you here!
HWGA- See? I told you to be patient. Girls all that muscle you have is going to be burning fat like crazy!!
Taylor- Glad to hear the $$ situation is slightly better. Hang in there! Everything happens for a reason....
Jelbb- Can you make the weight fall off of me too? I would really appreciate it! lol
Whoa, I haven't posted in this weekly chat once! That's no good. I went away for the long weekend, and have been having trouble getting back on track.
I've basically been maintaining for like months now. Which I realize is certainly better than gaining, but it's time for me to get the rest of this weight off and get healthy.
You all are doing so fabulously! Keep it up. You inspire me every day.
So I went to the gym this morning and realized that what seemed so easy yesterday was torture today!! LOL I did about 45 minutes on the elliptical and was cursing at it the whole time....where, yesterday I did 50 minutes without even flinching. I'm blaming it on the fact that one of my favorite movies happened to be playing on the tv, where today there was nothing on any of the channels! haha But I got it done, and felt slightly better because of that.
It's been an otherwise lazy day though. It's chilly out, so I want nothing more than to bundle up in my big, oversized hooded sweatshirt and watch mindless tv all day long!! haha
I've been debating reposting >-< I havn't had a "binge" episode in several SEVERAL months. I wonder if I just overdid it with my excitement with starting to try and be healthy for myself that I just didn't feed myself enough Ended up running over to the grocery store and bought a LOT of junk (Going to avoid the food porn, you'll all just have to trust me on this one!). Finished it all up last night and this morning..........
ON a PLUS tho.. I've learned to pick myself right up again.. so instead of continuing my weight loss efforts tomorrow, I just started now... Had a yummy turkey sandwich with avocado and tomato for lunch on wheat bread. Wish I could say I threw all the junk away but its all in my tummy. Guess its a little extra motivation for my next trip to the gym.
I did get to stop by sports authority yesterday tho, and bought some 5# weights figured I would try to start doing some lifting and lunges
Thanks for listening to my ramble and thanks for all the motivation! Listening to you all helped me to pick myself back up again!
this week it feels like i have eaten nothing but cake. And i enjoyed it. Back on track tomorrow (hopefully other household members will clear out remaining cake throughout today!)
I feel like I'm going to physically die, I'm so sore! I spent 9 hours today shoveling dirt and hauling dirt and dumping dirt and spreading dirt and shoveling some more dirt. I had dirt under my toenails even though I was wearing socks and shoes!! But I got my raised gardens (which will be filled with veggies) in and the parameter of my backyard filled with awesome black dirt (which will be filled with berry bushes next spring). But now everything hurts, my feet, my back, my legs, my arms... But I even with all the hard work, I didn't ever get tired or winded AT ALL! I must be doing something right with the exercising if this is the case. And I could haul almost as much dirt as my pa, and he's hella strong. All the manual labor kept my mind off my sh**** week, so yay for hard work! *sigh* It might be the overwhelming soreness that is making me a bit giddy right now *I don't remember having any alcoholic beverages...hmmmm*
Iconised Ghost -- Mmmm cake (if I could move, I'd be making some...)
bekko -- Way to go on picking yourself up!! And I totally agree with choosing not to wait til tomorrow to get back on track, it helps to make good choices in the moment.
Chele615 -- That happens to me ALL THE TIME, one workout will breeze by and the next will feel terrible. I just tell myself "You can do this for 30 mins, it's only 30 mins" or however long. And each minute that passes is over and done. You're awesome for sticking it out!!!
just keep swimming -- Maintaining is so completely awesome, you're doing something right to be keeping what you've already lost OFF for a while!
HeatherMcG -- We were just talking about chocolate cheese at work this week, weird. I had it years ago, and I remember thinking it was going to be gross, but oddly it was not too bad. It was like a creamy, salty, fudgey texture/taste. Not unappealing, but really odd.
Jelbb -- This is my safe place. I love my friends, I really do, but not one has ever really struggled with their weight that I know of, and that makes me feel like a loser (yes, I know I'm not a loser because of this, but it makes the battle so much worse to struggle in front of someone who has no issues with it). Most of the time I shy away from TMI, but here it is SUCH A RELIEF to read people's issues/problems, and be able to relate and just "get it".
Oh, and you're awesome and Irish boy knows this too, that is why he adores you! You deserve to be happy and I hope he realizes that he's making you crazy and sends you lots of lovey (and maybe naughty -- haha) texts!!!!
Elwing -- You're parents sound AMAZING! Even your dad is being so supportive of you, that is so wonderful! My dad actually bought me an elliptical machine, but I don't talk about weight loss with my parents. I know this is going to sound horrible, but my mom (and pretty much her whole family) has been on all sorts of different diets forever and I think that is where a lot of my food issues have arisen from. I don't blame her because this is my issue to deal with, but I know it was a catalyst. I love my parents, they will support me in almost whatever I do, and I know THEY KNOW the best way to support me with this is to not say anything.
Here we go again -- Thank you again. And the 279 may have been a fluke, but WHO CARES! that is so awesome, just completely enjoy it, do a little dance (yeah, I'm doing one for you right now, in my head, because the rest of me hurt...) because we MUST celebrate the successes!
Jelbb: Awwww...please don't be sad...your weight loss efforts are worth it! they are worth it for you...even if the Irish lad can't see them so often. I hope you feel better. And I have experienced the alcohol weight loss many times
HeatherMcG: mmmm chocolate cheese sounds kinda good to me! I can imagine it could be gross if it was like a chocolate covered strong cheese like sharp cheddar...I have the opposite problem of you-I like alcohol a lil too much!
just keep swimming: I have been in the maintenance boat myself for a while now...I lost this week for the first time in months! Just .6 of a pounds...but if I can do it, so can you!
chele: well all I can say is way to go on the elliptical! I can only do about 15 minutes of that thing before I am having a heart attack! And I too want to do nothing but watch tv!
bekko: don't feel bad about the binge...it's inspiring to me that you can go for months without one as I do a big one probably once a week...way to go on getting right back on track! that can be hard after a binge
iconised ghost: LOL at the cake statement!
bella: that's awesome that you are getting so much physical activity in a different way...I have been soooooooo craving non typical exercise...bike riding, basketball, hiking, tennis, ANYTHING
~ Well I am just trying to up my weight loss lately! I haven't been doing much working out...but my eating has been okay. There was only a couple times this week that I got out of control...where at the beginning of my weight loss I could go months without that happening! I am really trying to lose 10 pounds by December 31st. Do you guys think that is reasonable?
I am having trouble getting the motivation to exercise. I feel like a fat blob. But I know only I have to come up with some type of motivation to get off of the couch and move. So I'm gonna continue to try to stave off the urge to sit on my couch for long periods of time. Anyway, hope that you are all doing well staying on the boat.
Getting the motivation to exercise is definitely the hardest part of it all!!! I just make myself go to the gym or go for a walk right when I get home from work....that way, hopefully, I can't talk myself out of it. Plus, I know that if I let myself procrastinate and think to myself, "only a couple more minutes...", I will never get there.
Once I get out there and start the exercise, it's fine!! Isn't that the worst part of it all? Because you know sitting there that those 30 minutes you just sat and watched crap on MTV or whatever, is 30 minutes that could have also been spent doing something physical. Especially if you could have been doing something physical in front of the tv...best of both worlds
I hope your motivation comes back in full swing Becca!
As for me, I am wicked excited today!!! It's been a good weekend. Red Sox forced a game 7 tonight to try to get back to the World Series, I am getting blinds in my bedroom windows instead of the crappy, slightly ripped shades I have there now, and I managed to lose .8 pounds and am now down to 213.8 lbs. I was really excited about that because I wasn't expecting a loss of any kind since I am in the middle of my TOM. So, to see the scale down this morning was a nice feeling!
this weekend has sucked food wise. I have been a fat pig, basically. Yesterday was my son's birthday party, so there was cake. Also, there was spaghetti, potato salad, fruit salad, chips, dips, soda's, sub sandwiches and pizza. Gosh I ate too much yesterday. I weighed in this am at 169, so I gained. *insert sad face here*
I'm feeling very lonely. I guess thats to be expected after you get dumped. But I can't stop crying. And I feel like I'm going to be alone forever. I'm hating life right now.
Tomorrows another week. *heavy sigh*
vday & bella- I was definitely expecting more from the chocolate cheese. I only had a tiny tasting cube and at first it just tasted like cheese. Slowly I tasted the chocolate forming and I started thinking that there was a lot more hype to this cheese then it deserved. As I was chewing and trying to force my body to swallow , I looked up and saw a sign that said, "Tastes just like a Tootsie Roll!!" I thought, "What kind of tootsie rolls do you people eat??!? Because this is definitely NOT what a tootsie roll tastes like..." I made hubby buy me the first bottle of water we found to wash the disgusting aftertaste out of my mouth. Yuck! Been there, tried that, on to the next bizarre local food.
The only new thing for me is that yesterday my aunt noticed I was losing weight! She said, "Hey, you look like you started losing again. Are you?" Those simple words were all I needed to make me beam ear to ear for the rest of the day. She knows how I struggle and that for a while, it had all stopped. Its nice to know that others notice.... I was beginning to think my WL was a lost cause! P.S. My jeans are big.... really big... I will be taking them in this week! This is news since I have lost 53 lbs but only 1 pant size so far! Yay! :Broc:
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Heather:
No problem, baby. *waves her magic wand and we all get thin, and healthy whilst gorging ourselves on cake and cookies and fast food.*
...oh, hey!!! That's so great that someone noticed and pointed out your weight loss to you! That must make you feel so fantastic!
...god, I dunno how long it'll take people to notice my losing weight, but something tells me it'll have to be another 10 lbs before people see it in my face...
Just Keep Swimming:
Hey, we have almost exactly the same start point and finish goals! ...damn you're winning.
Chele:
I d'nno darling, sometimes I find that the same workout can be SUPER easy one day, and really challenge your body the next. I'm not sure exactly what factors would affect that... but having an awesome movie on can TOTALLY help keep you distracted while you're working! What movie was it?
Ooh, congrats on your .8 loss, too!!! Always love seein' that number go down.
Bekko:
Ahhh, the binge, it happens, it's rough. I hope you're not beating yourself up too much.
I'm totally a compulsive eater. If I open a bag of something, I continue to absent-mindedly munch until I've ingested like.. 1000 calories in the form of a bag of chips, and I feel like I'm made of grease.
The important thing is that you're ready and willing to start fresh! I think one of the best things to do to avoid binging is to try to make yourself a good amount of healthy food, and always eat until you really feel full. Until you REALLY think, "Nah, I don't want to eat anything else--"
Maybe it's just me, but I figure... the extra few calories I'm taking in by heaping some more veggies onto my plate, or adding a baked potato... will be far less than the amount of calories I'll ingest if I still feel hungry and catch a wiff of Ben & Jerry's when I pass it on my way to work.
I-Ghost:
You can always count on the household members to slowly get rid of junk you're trying to avoid eating.
Bella:
Can totally see where you're coming from. I introduced my friend to my brother, and now they're engaged... so I live with my future sister in law. She is... without a doubt, the skinniest person on the face of the planet. Some guys think she's drop dead hot, others I've heard say that she's "too thin," but... either way, it's a self-esteem killer having her around 24/7. But the VERY worst part is that... she eats like a pig. She eats chips, and cookies, bakes cakes and brownies, lives on microwaveable dinners and sugary cereals.
Is it just me, or when you see a skinny person eat something like pizza, do you ever feel like it almost gives you PERMISSION to do it? Like.. they can eat that, and look like THAT, shouldn't I be able to eat that and look like that...?
And thanks... Irish Boy's been much better with the communication for the last few days, and I've been taking 'er easy on my frustration when he doesn't txt me back. I need to pick my battles, and accept that he is super lame with the txt responses, and know that he's trying.
vday:
Thanks darling. Yeahhh.. I was just having a feelin' down day. I've actually been keeping my weight loss success a secret from the bf, because I want him to think, "Wow!" when he sees me at the airport. And also not to have any expectations, but.. that's the insecure what-if-I-gain-back-the-weight-I've-just-lost-after-I-tell-him-I'm-losing-weight part of my brain talking...
10 lbs by December 31st is a great goal! It's about ten weeks, so.. a pound a week. Which means... all you have to do is cut down by 3,500 calories a week (500 a day) through healthy eating/exercise, and you're golden!!! ...sorry, I'm weirdly analytical about weight loss numbers... it feels more like a sure thing if you know exactly what you have to do to make the scale budge, lol...
GOOD LUCK, tho, I believe in you!!!
Becca:
Sometimes digging deep inside and finding the motivation to MOVE is a lot harder than expected, lol. Hopefully you can find something that you really enjoy that gets you exercising.
I... don't... enjoy exercise.... I mean, I don't mind walking, but I get bored easily. I do, however, enjoy sitting on my butt and listening to audiobooks while I'm busy doing other things. So.. two and two together. I threw a couple of audiobooks on my iPod, and now I don't mind going for walks, because I'm not bored! (Yay for the Twilight series, helping me lose weight! )
And as for me... Ceeeeeeeelebrate good times, COME ON!!
I own 3 pairs of the same jeans. It's a little bit sad... This specific pair of jeans happens to fit my body type pretty well, but.. well, as I got larger, I needed larger sizes. Obviously.
I didn't even intend to buy the same pair, but I go to Jean Machine, and the sales people I ask to "Just throw a ton of different pairs at me," always get me to try them on. Once they're on and I think, Hey, these ones fit pretty good--, I see the same tell-tale stitching around the pockets that tell me they're the same ones.
SO, I own these jeans in a size 30, 31 and 33. (What's that, like, 10, 12 and a 14?) It's a teensy bit sad that I've got the 30 and the 31 tucked away in my drawer in the sad hope that I might one day fit into them again... while I've been wearing the 33s.
Today I went out to drop off my sister in law at work, and my jeans kept slipping down, despite my having tightened my belt. I can't stand knowing that my jeans are baggy on my butt cos they're sliding off my hips, so I irritatedly kept hoisting them back up without thinking much of it.
Then a thought occurred to me. When I got home, I rifled through my drawers to the bottom and pulled out my 31s. Slipped them on, and did them up!!! Okay, so they're not PERFECT, I get the teensiest bit of muffin top that I don't get with the 33s, I wouldn't by any means wear a super tight, sheer-shirt with them, but... hey, they fit my butt and legs like a glove!!!! YAY!!!
(THE JEANS, the last time I was able to wear them... aka., Summer 2007)
Jelbb -- when I see a very skinny person downing pizza, my first thought tends to go to either they haven't eaten in 3 days OR when they are finished with it, they will go to the bathroom and hit eject. Either way, I can't believe it's real, but mostly I'm jealous of them. I WANT to give myself permission to eat it almost as much as I want to hate them for being able to eat it. Ahh, thems the breaks, I guess...
Your roommate is engaged to your brother? does that make your living situation more complicated or less comfortable? Not sure how I'd feel about that, but I'm hoping I'll be really happy for my bro when he finds his future mate (hoping, although I can't imagine anyone good enough for him! haha I'm super protective of my little bro).
Also, Twlight... don't even get me started, love it!
HeatherMcG -- Not a fan of the chocolate cheese, huh? I'd say best to keep those two food separate in the future, why upset a good thing?
Chele615 -- So awesome on the loss!!! I feel the same about exercising, I can't think about it too much otherwise I find myself talking myself out of it. But once I'm in the mode, I figure why not just keep going. It's all a mind trick!
ghost -- *BIG HUG* I'm so sorry you're sad now. I can empathize with the lonely feelings, I'm living there right now. You WILL find someone who is wonderful for you, someone who adores you! And the gain is probably from all the salt so drink a lot of water to get it out of your system. A new week is a fresh start!!!
misstraveller -- The key is taking that first step and trying not to think about it too much. And good shoes, because if your feet hurt, it's easy to give up...
So apparently I can't make it here during the week, but this weekend I just can't stay away... ha!
Bella:
Well, I actually introduced the two before we moved in together, so it was a conscious choice of mine to move in with her as my brother's girlfriend--- and before the move-in date, she became my brother's fiance. He lives in another town while she's here doing her masters, so he's only around on weekends...
I d'nno. It's never really bothered me. I introduced them before I went to Ireland, they'd been seeing each other for a little over a month... when I came back from Ireland, suddenly they were on the brink of their 6 month anniversary.
The reason it's probably never bugged me is because he's my OLDER brother, so I don't have that protective sort of... "you're not good enough" sorta hold on him. Though, his ex-girlfriend treated him like garbage, so when he started dating my friend, it was like a breath of fresh air... to know he was with someone who would never put him down or intentionally make him feel bad.
Thanks darlin. YAY, I'm so glad you got Stumbleupon, isn't it amazing?? Totally crazy stuff. I could spend hours with it. In fact, I do sometimes when I'm bored, lol. 
