to be motivated, and it's completely bumming me out.
I was doing SO well for the first half of the summer. Then I moved in with my sister and completely fell off track due to several very good (albeit still ridiculous) reasons.
I got down to 139 and was feeling incredible, and now I'm back up to 152. I started Depo, had REALLY bad cravings, and comfort ate. I'm an all or nothing girl - so once I screwed it up I just kept going.
Now none of my clothes fit again, I feel like garbage, and I'm having a really hard time caring again.
The boyfriend pretends not to notice my weight gain, and I pretend not to care. And here I am.
I'm lowering my phone bill so I can afford a gym membership, and I want to start up the C25K again, so I'll be hitting the gym three days a week. I only drink water (lots), black coffee, and vitamin water (maybe half of one per day?) so no super super sugary drinks. For breakfast I have oatmeal and a peach with a small glass of skim milk - but then for lunch and dinner, it's whatever is easy and cheap on campus.
Basically it's all half assed and it's no wonder that I'm blowing up like a balloon
But I'm starting to try again, and the boyfriend is getting involved too (he's joining me in the new gym membership
Any encouragement and advice is warmly welcomed.
So there it is - I'm back and ready to start over.