Ok, I get depressed often, it's usually self esteem problems. Well I just got a real cute tattoo on my lower back and I was in a real good mood, I was feeling good about myself I was even getting hit on and stuff this day, so I was having a self esteem boost which is very rare for me. Then the worst thing possible happens.
I was in the grocery store dressed real cute and feeling good. I left and was putting the groceries in the car when a lady that worked there came out and gave my my egges that I accidently left inside, she said " I'm glad I caught you, you forgot your egges, a customer saw you leave them, I asked her what you looked like and she said you were the girl in the green shirt that looks a little pregnant". It took every bit of strength I had that moment not to break down crying right there. I'm 150 lbs, which isn't skinny but until that moment I didn't realize that one of my most defining features was my fat. I was thinking she couldn't have said the girl in the green shirt and blonde hair, or girl in the green shirt and high heel. I felt like wow, I didn't realize that the first thing people notice about me is that I'm fat.
Now I don't even wanna leave the house and I don't know if I'll ever feel good like I did that day ever again. I guess one good thing did come from it, I am so disgusted with myself that I havn't eaten in 2 days. My heart still feels like it's in my stomach.