Honestly, journaling can really help you find:
1) what works
2) your triggers
3) your emotions vs. non-hungry eating
4) your progress in black and white
5) friends who have somewhere to go to support you
I've been in NL for 13 years. I'm actually originally from Alamogordo. My family's been up in Rio Rancho for about... I don't know 10 years? Some of my family has been in Placitas for a good 25 years but we are all from Alamogordo originally.
all the best to you~ whatever you decide to do to get back on track I'm sure there are lots of people wanting to support you