I feel good today; like I am finally getting out of the rut I have been stuck in.
This morning my food intake has been good and last night I had a great NSV.. I exercised. I tried out a new gym last night. It was a great change from the new hi-tech and over-crowded gym I have been unsuccessfully forcing myself to go to. It was much smaller and quieter.. older and more comfortable. I like it alot. And there weren't as many mirrors! I hated at the other gym how all of the walls were mirrors, everywhere. You had to stare at yourself the whole time you huffed and puffed! I think I can get used to this place. I went around and tested out the various machines (the ones I was too afraid to try before) by looking at the directional pictures and just working my way through it until I was doing it correctly. Now I won't be so intimidated to use them! Feel the burn...
I also realized today that I have been carrying around so much of other people's emotional baggage. I realized I can put it down. Let them pick it up for themselves if they want to carry it! I have enough stress of my own without taking on everyone else's. This morning my sister actually tried to pick a fight with me through text-messaging! I just didn't do it.
I responded, "I am not fighting with you anymore. All we do is fight. It's not worth the energy or the bad mood it puts me in. I'm not blaming you; I know my part in it. It's just stupid and I'm done with it." (She has yet to reply to it and I don't expect that she will) ..whew.. it feels good to just lay it out there and when she threw the ball at me I just decided not to catch it. Let her keep her bad mood; I don't want it!
I'm crawling out of the ditch one baby step at a time, towards the road to success! Thanks all for being so supportive and helping me come so far! You rock...