I am having a "me vs the world" day. I am feeling like I am responsible for everything this family does!!!!! I need to be spontanious and fun. Moms job sucks! I have no close friends to have fun w/ these days. I just feel like crawling into a whole and crying. Or screaming. Maybe both. I need more sleep. Grif did not cooperate there and Chris stayed out w/ his friends from out of town till real late. He works grave tonight so I gotta let him sleep too. This sucks. I need to run away. But then all my problems would be here and even messier when I returned. No one calling me for an interview is really getting to me. Maybe I should figure a way to get self employed. Won't help for insurance but it is a start on bills. I need a glimmer of hope! I started the day w/ 2 poptarts and a Hawaian punch. It was yummy but the scale isn't gonna move w/ breakfasts like that!!! I wish you all were closer to help me out of this funk! audri ps/ the dog's name is Missy. Hate the name too.