Since my get up and go seemed to have gotten up and went, I had the silly notion that taking pics of what I look like now would inspire me to get up and move. WRONG !!!!!!.
I just took some body shots with my cam and was blinded by the rolls. I mean this just completely took smile off of my face. I feel so defeated right now. Subconciously I know that this should be a major motivator. But conciously I just had a major reality check that really makes me want to give up. **sigh**
I know looking at these recent pics may seem devastating (we have all been there)...but compare them to pics of where you were when you started. That should give you a lift and motivate you to continue on.
You are reading my mind!!! My husband gave me a digital photo frame for Christmas -- I just upload pictures from my computer onto it and they flash by like a slide show -- sounds cool -- I was sitting here working and noticed our summer pictures, unfortunately me playing with the kids. I guess I had convinced myself that I didn't look too bad at the time. Boy, the changes that occur when you really objectively look at yourself! Denial, denial, denial. I hate them and if my kids weren't in them, I would delete them immediately!! So, why don't we hide these pictures away for a while, lock them up, and every time we lose 20 pounds we can take a peak??? I hope they will motivate me, and hope they don't depress me more than they are today. I have so far to go, but the alternative is to continue to go up and up, so I think I will continue on, what about you???
Good luck -- some day those pictures will make us feel so powerful and committed ??!!!
I can relate. My kids and I just had our picture taken last week for the church directory. When our picture came up on the screen I was mortified. I looked as wide as a house. I told the guy the photographer should have put me in back instead of having the kids in back of me!! His reply - we are always harder on ourselves than anyone else ever is. This is so true! Then Sunday night I had my daughter take my "before" picture. I was sad. However, I was up at 4:30 Monday morning to excercise with Richard Simmons & the Oldies (that is about all I can keep up with - lol). So...we are all in the same boat sister! Just plan on using that as an intermediate picture when you post your before & after pics! Focus on how far you have come! You have essentially lost the weight equivalent to a small child- that is awesome!!! Let's do this!!!!
Words seem hollow when you down, but take heart and cheer up. Don't look at those pictures and say- "My God, what have I done to myself? What's the point if I look like that?" Instead say, "I needed that reality check, it hurts- yes, but the next time I take a picture of myself and see the difference between the two it will be better." You may not smile then, but you'll know it's not hopeless. ^-^ So get your but going bringing sexy back! Remember though, that sexy is more than just a babe-a-licious body- it's the mind that knows how to work that body, and take care of it.
I was in tears earlier and your posts really made all the difference.
Frustrated - Thanx for the kind words. I was just so hurt earlier. I realized today that I have been at this for a year and I cannot throw all that progress out of the window.
shelby -
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Originally Posted by shelby897
So, why don't we hide these pictures away for a while, lock them up, and every time we lose 20 pounds we can take a peak???
I'm in... rather than burn the photos. I need to put a positive spin on this. I am not going to give up.
fatBgone - I had that same experience back when I weighed 320. Went to a friends wedding and saw some really unflattering shots of me on the wedding DVD that they sent out to all 250 people in attendance. **sigh**
Thank you for putting it that way , I have lost the equivalent of a small child. We can do it
Reddalice - Thanks for the kick in the pants. You are right, it's not hopeless. and my butt is back in gear **singing** I'm bringing sexy back.
^-^ I'm glad you feel better, I am willing to kick as needed- should you need it! LoL
LOL Thank you ... warning...I will need to be kicked in about a week so rest up.
I feel so much better about things, you guys are the best!!!....but those pics are still in the vault until (yes, just until).
Motivation I need.. depression I can do without.
Don't burn the pics, no matter how much they hurt you. I used to be VERY camera shy. I have literally no pics of my at my heaviest weight. Now that I've had some success, I wish I did. Some days I feel real fat still, then I do look at the pics I do have when I had lost about 30 pounds.
I wish I had pics of me at my heaviest, so I could make a real comparison now. And I never, ever thought I would feel that way.