Hi Kelly, we're all doing this together. My heart goes out to you about the severe depression you mentioned. I'm no medical doctor, but I've read that some antidepressant medications might influence your weight. Could that be a factor for you? Kudos to you for working on loving yourself instead of jumping into a relationship with another person to see self-love reflected in their eyes. But don't wait until you're a certain dress size to start loving yourself. Everyone here can help you celebrate each small healthful choice until they accumulate into a transformed life. That's what I'm shooting for, too. Your first victory is participating in this community of support!