I should be taking a slice of humble pie right now... but I don't need any more pie!.. or anything else bad right now.
I'm coming back with my tail between my legs. I'm Dana - and I've been here off and on again too many time.
Why did I leave in the first place you ask? a couple of reasons. I knew I was not ready to diet - at all - I didn't want to. I was having a real hard time keeping up with all the messages and felt bad about it. I'm a real black and white person.
So what's changed? What are my goals?
I really have no idea. What I do know is what hasn't worked. Where to start? I really don't know that either. I'm extremly overweight - I guess that is my starting point. I weigh 241 lbs and I'm only 5 feet tall. Not good. I'm done fitday, weight watchers... and the "I can do it all on my own" diet.
Anyhow thanks for taking the time to read this.
All kind words are welcome!
I'm like you and was having a hard time focusing on myself. It very well could be the little guys in our lives I realized a month ago though, that in order to make Ryan #1 in my life, I also need to make time to make myself healthier and happier. You will do this when you are ready hun, so don't feel pressured to do anything you aren't capable of doing right now.
Welcome back Dana. You know a baby totally interrupts your life and it takes a while to really get all that back in focus and try to take care of now 2 kids, hubby and still make time for you and you are so right, if it's not the right time nor does it feel right there's no sense in beating yourself up because of it. I bet you are ready now and I have faith in you.
Dana,
I don't know how many times I have stopped and started. Things have started to work and then they don't. The important thing is in all this we learn what does work, we learn what we need to do and when we get serious about it again we can start all over. Hopefully it is a little easier than before. Before I got pregnant with my first son I was in great shape, had lost a lot of weight and was doing well. Yet here I am 5 years later having to start over again....You will get it. Don't be hard on yourself, I know it is easy to do that, but you will do it.
The thing is---YOU ARE HERE. You are willing to start over. I'd be more worried about you if you came here and said you had totally given up and you didn't care anymore. The fact that you are here shows you really care.
The kids suck the life out of me! I just wish it was the fat too! Far too often I make meals for everyone else... then I just seem to munch.. on "something". That is so bad. Anything new with you?
You know what hasn't worked for you before, so that's a good starting point. Now, if you can work out the reasons why particular things weren't right for you, you may have a clearer idea of what to try next.
Welcome Back! I've probably joined since you were last posting, but I'm sure you already know how great the people on this thread are. I understand about not being ready to diet. Although I've needed to for many years, until the time was right for me, I couldn't focus on it. I hope this is the time for you and you're ready to do it.
Humble Pie
I realized a month ago though, that in order to make Ryan #1 in my life, I also need to make time to make myself healthier and happier. You will do this when you are ready hun, so don't feel pressured to do anything you aren't capable of doing right now. 
