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Old 05-01-2006, 12:08 PM   #11
ljackson
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I am not going to WI today, I know I am not down any and I may be a few ounces up. I just can not handle them picking apart my journal today. I have learned my triggers and if i go in there and they are on my case I know I will come home, say screw it, and cheat. I know i would only be hurting myself, but that is the way my brain works. This process is so slow going for me, I lost last week, so I know this week I might just maintain. You would think that they would have figured out this is my pattern by now, but they just want to see a loss everytime and always look to my journal for the excuse. I am doing the best I can. I don't mean to sound angry or down, I want to be at goal and get on with my life.

Lisa
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