I'm so stressed and really need to vent
I got back from a great 2 week vacation to my hometown on Saturday, I never thought I'd say it.. but I really miss it and want to move back. I'm tired of this crappy city I live in!! Anyways, I know I can't do that..
I came home to starting a new job, and while it's SO good to be away from my old job, I'm SO scared about this new one. I'm working in the same store as my bf, which stresses me out because he's sort-of my boss. I don't want to disappoint him, or anyone else in the store (who I've become friends with). What if I don't live up to their expectations of me?!?
Also, I've been commuting to the company's head office in a diff part of the city from me, it's 1.5-2 hours each way in rush hour traffic. FREAKS me out, I cry every morning on the way there, and before bed. It's kind of embarrassing to admit that I have anxiety issues.. so I hold it in.
I only have one more day.. but I'm emotionally drained from it all.
AND!! I have work pants, but while I was away, I gained just enough weight to NOT be able to do them up. And I don't have the money to buy new ones.
The last thing? I finally figured out whats good for my body, and really know I need to do this for medical stuff. And it's SO frustrating to know what to do, and having to wait 2 or so weeks before I can afford to really do it.
Thanks for letting me vent, I feel better for getting this stuff out, I've been holding it all in. I don't want to disappoint anyone