I am such a flake..
I have the worst trouble committing to anything..
You guys might remember me.. back in April i was here.. then before that in December.. its like.. i get real excited.. then fail.. then it takes me a month or two to get the nerve back to try again. And during this time, days keep passing me by..
little background.. my highest weight ever was 333. ICK. Back in March of 2005. thats about 51 pounds ago. But.. i have lost like.. 5 pounds this year.. thats it.. I was feeling pretty good.. enjoying being able to actually wear denim again.. I lost weight in April.. and have gained about 7 pounds back.. Got a promotion at work, finals at college.. all these things gave me some sort of "excuse" for not working on me..
Im so tired of making excuses.. I really want to work on me.. Im happier now.. and the initial feeling good after the 50 pound loss is not here anymore.. i used to notice how i could breathe better, etc.. but i cant anymore.. i need to get a ton more weight off.. and just.. need some support i guess.. of course.. i have to KEEP AT IT...
anyway.. glad to be back..