I've read a lot of posts lately by people who are new to the forums and just starting out. I am finding that I really identify with their anxieties and frustrations. For a while losing weight was smooth sailing and I took it for granted. After a two month maintainence break I am finding that the last 20 pounds I need to lose are just as daunting as the first 20. I am finding it difficult to buckle down and do what has to be done to reach my goal - eat less and exercise more.
I've decided that part of what is holding me back is focusing too much on how far I've come. At 214 pounds getting started was hard because I had so much weight to lose. A couple of pounds didn't seem to make a difference and it was very discouraging. Now, I have the opposite problem. I'm a little too content right where I am and I find myself saying, "I've lost almost 80 pounds. What's 20 more? I can do that anytime!" Well, "anytime" keeps slipping away from me.
I think the best thing for me to do is to start completely over. I have the same desperate mentality that I had this time last year. Which, by the way, feels very hypocritical since I used to be horribly annoyed when I read posts from people who only had 20-30 pounds to lose. I would have killed to be in their shoes and now, here I am, complaining about it. Still, I am as worried about failing now as I was back then. I feel disorganized and not sure how to get started. Isn't that silly? I suppose it is because I don't know exactly what it is going to take to lose at my current weight and I'm not sure how many calories I'm willing to cut out or how much harder I'm willing to exercise.
Anyway, the point of posting this is to officially hold myself accountable for devising a plan and sticking to it until I've reached my goal weight of 115. Every morning for the past month I've started the day with full intentions of getting out of maintainence mode. This is it though. I've updated my ticker so there is no turning back now!
Thanks for letting me think out loud. It makes such a difference to know I have the safety net that is 3fc!