It's been awhile since I've posted.. or been on plan. I work a full time job and go to school part time, so my time was already maxed out to the bringing point.. or so I thought. Then my mother got sick. She has been in and out of the hospital probably 6 times or so since Nov 2004. Most of the stays have been at least a week, so she has been in the hospital almost as much as out. I've just lost track. She in such bad shape, I'm just at my wits end. She is stable now but my father quit his job to take care of her! He is 71 and was very semi-retired - he still basically worked full time.
She is not only shown me very, very plainly that I need to seize control of my life and my health right now or face living the same kind of life in the future, but she has also put our family doctor ON A MISSION. We use the same family doc - she just has several more on her "medical team." He has told me to get on the baby wagon or get off of it because he wants me on hard-core meds RIGHT NOW but can't really prescribe them because I'm telling him that my husband and I are thinking of having kids. He has also always resisted the idea of weight loss surgery for me but now he isn't so immune to the idea. My health mirrors my mother's more than my father's. My father is very healthy and doesn't have any big issues. I stare at my future every day when I have deal with my mom and I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to change it.
Work has gotten to be a big mess. My desk and work are out of control and behind. Home is no better. The house is wreck. Dust an inch thick everywhere. I'm behind in classes and school work. UGH!!
The only silver lining I guess at this point is the fact that I've lost a little bit and didn't gain any back. I think that was mostly from sitting at the hospital all day long and not eating anything because I was afraid to leave. I did that several days actually.
I feel like I'm just babbling now, so I'll stop.