Welcome back, Jackie -- I really appreciated your sweet comment on my blog, and also your post here looking for me! I'm really sorry to hear about your mom's health these days. Please let the silver lining be a wake-up call for you to continue to move forward seriously and with purpose in reaching your goal of good health. Any baby you have is going to need that from you -- but you know that.
I just want to say that you CAN do this. You can. You have to make it a priority. You have to find a way to find a half hour a day for exercise, and another hour or two a week to prepare a bunch of chicken, brown rice, prepped salads and pre-portioned salad dressings in baggies.....or whatever
to get your on-plan foods ready! You're eating something -- let it be the thing that supports your goals and gets you to a healthy place!
I'm rooting for you, Jackie. There is not a doubt in my mind that you have it in you to make the permanent changes you want to.