MY THIRD DAY AND FEELING AWFUL
Well today iím bumed out, yesterday i had cake,icecream, chips my sons birhtday, at a lot of cake he likes chocolate i donít so i bought myself one a 4Ē (9 oz) cake that served four.
today i ate at 7:30 am 2 fried chicked wings, and french fries i was in the mood for it and i said oh well better eat it know early then late at night. 1 banana, oh gosh i need to eat all over again,
its so hard i donít think i can do this i just as well give up, i wonít ever lose it i been fat for to long and for what know iím 40 to late, i hate this, iím so upset, sad, i been trying for so long but i give up since i donít lose anything and all i do is think about food.
i wounder how some people have lost 30,50,100 lbs itís my dream. i donít want to die fat my best friend passed away one year already, and she was big she died of cancer it was to late when she found out. anyway the funeral derector (sp) she need a bigger coffin because she is fat and then when they was carring the coffine he said hold it very good, because she is heavy,
i cried so much when i heard that but i donít know if the family heard but i wonít ever tell them, we was very closed for 22 yrs. and my sonís father is four yrs he passed away. he got electicuted at his brothers house fixing the basement life sucks.
I know you all mite get tired of hearing me complain and i know i will be doing alot of that but i just need to be able to go to a place to let it all out. please don't read any post of me when you see my name, i just want to be able to let it out, but i do appreciate any help i been writing menues down, and tips. thanks lot's of hugs,
SORRY I DON'T CHECK MY SPELLING BECAUSE IF I DO I CHICKEN OUT AND DELET MY POST. AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REREAD IT MAYBE IT WILL STICK TO MY MIND HOW BAD I FEEL AND MITE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT (NO I'M NOT YELLING I JUST THINK CAPS LOOKS BETTER.