Ok, so on June 9, I rejoined WW at 308.4. Well, here it is 5 weeks later and I weighed in today at 312 It hasn't been 5 weeks of gains, it's been 5 weeks of big losses and big gains. **SIGH** I stay on plan for about a week, just long enough to have a good loss and then off I go, eating whatever I feel like it. I fool myself into thinking that tomorrow, I will go back on and tomorrow just never comes. I wasn't all that motivated when I joined WW, but I knew I had to do something. Well, I still need to do something.
I told my WW leader that I was so disappointed in myself and that I wish we could just start over and act like today was my first day. She said "we can do that!" and she went and got me new books and replaced my sheet in her book. Week 1 - 312. I didn't expect that. So here I sit, just a mere 8 lbs from my highest weight and a chance to start over.
I wanted to hide from you guys. Actually, I have been doing just that to some extent. I didn't want everyone to know that once again I had failed. I had failed to do what I had said I was going to do...failed to follow through...failed myself. Then my own words started ringing in my head. "when people are doing bad, they tend to hide out and that's when they should come here the most, when they need the support". So here I am, coming clean.
I weigh 312 lbs and today I re-joined Weight Watchers.
I plan to turn my greatest failure into my greatest achievement. I know it will be a rough road, but I am up for the challenge.
I have a bracelet that I had custom made that says "it's up to me". Tonight I will put that bracelet back on and remember that it's all about choices and it's up to me. My plan of attack is simple, stick to my points and move my butt. This isn't rocket science (as someone said) I know what needs to be done. Time to stop the talking and get to doing!
Thanks for always being there! Love you guys!!