I was married once - for 10 years. Can't say it was the best decade of my life, but the past is past and I try not to dwell on it. However, I made a vow to myself that I wouldn't go through that again. For the next 18 years (wow, that's a loooong time) I concentrated on raising my daughter, continuing my education, building my career, developing new interests and widening my circle of friends. That's not to say I didn't date - I had one fairly serious relationship, 2 semi-serious ones and a few "we dated but are better off friends" ones. Nothing happened to change my way of thinking about marriage.
Then, in early October, HE came into my life (geez...has it really only been 5 months???). Darn it, he's changing my outlook and I don't think I like it! I'm out of control!! I'm not used to being in that teenage girl phase (and let's face it, I haven't been a teenager for almost 30 years), plus I'm quite happy with my independence. Then again...everything's just "oh so right" when I'm with him. He appears to feel the same way and talks often about his plans for the future (the long-term future), always including me in the equation.
Having such mixed emotions, I decided I must keep a level head. It's too soon. Give it time. There's no need to rush. We're doing just fine as we are. There's no need to change things. Don't get carried away. I decided that if he should bring up any marriage talk I'd nip it in the bud immediately. Yep...be sensible Jill.
So last night we're in the kitchen preparing for a romantic candlelight dinner when I caught him staring at me intensely. I sensed he was about to utter something earthshattering. My pulse raced as I returned his gaze, then watched with anticipation as his mouth formed the words, "Jill, will you mar.." "YES, OH YES!!" I interrupted. He looked rather puzzled (and scared), so I said "Sorry, what were you saying dear?". He cleared his throat, swallowed hard and continued, "Jill, will you marinate the meat overnight next time? This still looks a little tough".
So, do you think he caught on? Arghhhh...and I thought dieting was difficult!!