[boobanasty]

Hello all. This is my first post and I hope I am posting in the correct forum. I have struggled all of my life with my weight. My husband has never known me under 200lbs! I am hat my heaviest right now (282 at 5'5") and I feel awful. I turned 42 over the summer and know I need to lose this weight if I am going to have a healthy life.

The problem is I am definitely a food addict. I eat when I am emotional. Sometimes food controls me. Whenever I am invited somewhere or have to attend a long meeting the first thing I think about is what there will be for food instead of the topic at hand. I hate that but can't seem to break out of this craziness.

I have tried OA and really couldn't get into it. I tried a sponsor but she insisted I go to four meetings a week. There is no way I could fit that in my schedule so she dropped me and told me I wasn't ready to make the commitment. Maybe she is right.

I feel very alone. I am hoping I find some help here.

[gagirl1]

Welcome! There are many different boards and threads you may be interested in. You may want to check out the "getting out of the 280 and 270" thread. There is usually a thread for each "decade" or two for you to get support from people who are at a similar place as you. I have been on and off the site for a few years, but I'm finally in a good place for me and I've lost 26 lbs since the end of June. You'll see me on the 270s & 280s board for a few pounds more. Best of luck.

[Candidcamster]

I am also a food addict, I think at least half of us are, you're in good company. I had a similar experience w/OA when I was a teenager, where I just couldn't get into it, and all I cared about was not being fat anymore. There is so much more to addiction than what we look like, but that is the thing that gets to us more than the addiction to food itself. Food swaps can reduce the weight, and with time you can overcome this addiction, I've seen people do it, though I am not there myself.