3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community  

Go Back   3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community > Support Forum > Support Groups > 100 lb. Club

Bouncing Back From Rock Bottom

Reply
 
Thread Tools
Old 06-27-2015, 09:36 PM   #1
Tired Of Just Surviving
 
SmallSteps's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Posts: 1,148

S/C/G: 296/288/198

Height: 5'7"

Default Bouncing Back From Rock Bottom

I became a widow on December 25, 2014. Since then I have gained 40 pounds of the previous 53 pounds I had lost. We had only been married for 3 months and had been together for 3 years.

I don't care about what I look like, just getting out of bed, going to work and coming home has been a struggle. I have no desire to work but since we had purchased a new car in October and moved into a new apartment on December 1st I have no choice. I am barely sleeping. I have no desire to exercise as this was something we always did together and I am physically and emotionally just to tired.

I am an emotional eater. For the last six months all I have ate is fast food, snack cakes, potato chips and I drink Pepsi by the gallon. This was something that I had learned to control in my previous weight loss journey, but with his death all control went out the window. Before his death I was drinking 100 ounces of water daily and now water is just something I bathe or swim in.

Today I made a conscious decision that it is time to make a change. I feel horrible, I look horrible and I am almost back to my starting weight from 2011. I said I would never be here again and yet here I am sitting looking at 300 pounds in the very near horizon.

I am sure there will be lots of stumbles, slip-ups and tears while I try to figure this process out again. I know I can do this I have done it before. I also know I can not do this without the support, friendship and love of you folks that are going through this weight loss journey also.
__________________

My Lowest Journey Weight: 242.8 - July 30, 2012
My Reboot Journey Weight: 286.6 - June 27, 2015

5% (272.3) | 10% (258) | Under 250 (249.9) | 15% (243.7) | Severe Obesity BMI (241) | 20% (229.4) | 25% (215) | 30% (200.8) | ONEderland (199) | 100 lost (186.6)

You'll never be able to deal with what's going on with your body until you deal with what's going on with your soul.



Last edited by SmallSteps : 06-27-2015 at 10:49 PM.
SmallSteps is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-27-2015, 09:54 PM   #2
lovemylife001
 
lovemylife001's Avatar
 
Join Date: May 2015
Location: Michigan
Posts: 88

S/C/G: 180/see ticker/135

Height: 5'7

Default

SmallSteps, first let me say that I am very sorry for your loss. Losing someone that you love is devastating. I'm so proud of you for deciding to take control of your life.

I admire you strength and courage and would love to go on this Lifestyle change journey with you. I have already joined one of your challenges and look forward to many more
__________________



If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution. ~Author Unknown

Last edited by lovemylife001 : 06-27-2015 at 09:55 PM.
lovemylife001 is online now   Reply With Quote
Old 06-27-2015, 09:58 PM   #3
Melissa
 
berryblondeboys's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jan 2011
Posts: 6,218

Height: 5'6.5"

Default

Smallsteps. I remember you and I send my deepest, deepest sympathies. That is a horrible, horrible loss and I'm so terribly sorry.

I too am here too, regaining everything I lost plus 8 pounds. It's a horrible feeling to know what I've done to my body (again). My reasons are vastly different from yours, but regain I did.

I don't know the circumstances of your husband's death, but I'm sure he would want the best for you and would want you to live healthfully and in peace, but anyone should be empathetic and understanding in where you are emotionally. Right now you have just been trying to cope. The healing it seems though, is beginning. Maybe in small steps, like your name, but that is all you need to do... One moment at a time.

Hugs to you - sincerely.
__________________



Restart 5/18/15 began at 263.9. All time high was 275 in 7/03. Low in Summer 2012 of 169.
A for every 5 pounds lost on the weight loss reboot:

My journey to a healthier lifestyle blog http://melissaslife42.blogspot.com/
berryblondeboys is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-28-2015, 05:56 AM   #4
Senior Member
 
Bonnie+J's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: Ireland
Posts: 226

S/C/G: 251/245/145

Height: 5ft 7

Default

Oh sweetheart, I am so so sorry for your loss.

I wish you all the best, I have joined your Labour day challenge, I look forward to joining you on your journey.
__________________
Just starting, just learning, hoping to lose 100lbs in a year
Bonnie+J is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-28-2015, 07:05 PM   #5
Junior Member
 
buckeyegal's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: Ohio, of course!
Posts: 24

Height: 5' 6"

Default

I echo the sorrow we all feel for your heart wrenching loss. We do what we have to do to get through such devastating heartbreak and you did what you had to do. I admire your courage just six months after becoming a widow to pick yourself up and start anew.

I have not experienced such a tragic loss like you to bring me to my rock bottom. I've hit the bottom and have nothing or no one to attribute my fall to but myself. My nighttime eating when I am not hungry, my "I'll start tomorrow" attitude, denial, not caring and every excuse known to mankind is why I have gained 70 lbs, lost it, gained it, lost it, etc. over the last 30 yrs.

How many more times can I do this? I am wrecking my health by not losing the weight and keeping it off. I have no decent clothes. I do not want to attend social functions with my DH because of my weight. He went to his class reunion this weekend alone because of this.

At my age I feel this is my last chance to regain some control in my life, lose the weight and live what time I have left as healthy as I can be.

My prayers and best wishes are for you, Small Steps, to rise up to a new beginning. I am joining you in this journey to find a healthy, happy life.

Last edited by buckeyegal : 06-28-2015 at 07:09 PM.
buckeyegal is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-28-2015, 08:06 PM   #6
Senior Member
 
MrsTryingAgain's Avatar
 
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: Northern CA
Posts: 433

S/C/G: 277/ticker/185?

Height: 5'6"

Default

smallsteps

I cannot begin to express my sympathies to you. I have been with H since the fall of '88, I could not imagine. It seems at times to be too unbearable to even comprehend.

I find your courage amazing for wanting to try to improve yourself. It may actually help you in your healing, which is what I hope! You didn't say if you went through any sort of grief counseling. I did it when my dad, who I was thiscloseto, passed away very suddenly. It helped greatly & gave me tools to cope. Not saying it made everything flowers & sunshine again, but it did me good. I was able to find a free support group, you may want to look around for something like that if you haven't already.

I wish you the very best. Hope you come here often! It is a great place for encouragement/support & guidance. I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers.
__________________
Started yet again June 8, 2015. First mini-goal: 20 lbs by Nov. 15 when I see my doctor again!
MrsTryingAgain is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-28-2015, 09:47 PM   #7
Tai
Senior Member
 
Tai's Avatar
 
Join Date: Mar 2008
Posts: 1,471

S/C/G: 272/136/maintaining

Height: 5'4"

Default

Smallsteps, I'm so sorry for your loss. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Tai is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 06-30-2015, 01:02 AM   #8
Tired Of Just Surviving
 
SmallSteps's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Posts: 1,148

S/C/G: 296/288/198

Height: 5'7"

Default

Thank you ladies for your replies and your support. The last 6 months have been like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I hope coming back "home" will help me get myself back on track again.

I love you all.
__________________

My Lowest Journey Weight: 242.8 - July 30, 2012
My Reboot Journey Weight: 286.6 - June 27, 2015

5% (272.3) | 10% (258) | Under 250 (249.9) | 15% (243.7) | Severe Obesity BMI (241) | 20% (229.4) | 25% (215) | 30% (200.8) | ONEderland (199) | 100 lost (186.6)

You'll never be able to deal with what's going on with your body until you deal with what's going on with your soul.


SmallSteps is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 07-01-2015, 11:10 AM   #9
Junior Member
 
erowley's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Washington, D.C.
Posts: 15

S/C/G: 272/251/180

Height: 5'5"

Default

I am so sorry to hear of your loss as well. Glad you are here.

Elaine
__________________
erowley is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 07-01-2015, 12:00 PM   #10
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Apr 2015
Posts: 17

S/C/G: 280/235/150

Height: 5'8"

Default

Smallsteps I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. I support you in making changes to heal your body and soul. We are right here with you!
robinm is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 07-29-2015, 01:55 AM   #11
Tired Of Just Surviving
 
SmallSteps's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Posts: 1,148

S/C/G: 296/288/198

Height: 5'7"

Default

Thank you ladies. I am struggling right now, but I am still fighting.
__________________

My Lowest Journey Weight: 242.8 - July 30, 2012
My Reboot Journey Weight: 286.6 - June 27, 2015

5% (272.3) | 10% (258) | Under 250 (249.9) | 15% (243.7) | Severe Obesity BMI (241) | 20% (229.4) | 25% (215) | 30% (200.8) | ONEderland (199) | 100 lost (186.6)

You'll never be able to deal with what's going on with your body until you deal with what's going on with your soul.


SmallSteps is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply
Posts by members, moderators and admins are not considered medical advice
and no guarantee is made against accuracy.


Thread Tools

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

vB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off


All times are GMT -4. The time now is 07:52 AM.






Powered by vBulletin® Version 3.6.7
Copyright ©2000 - 2015, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search Engine Optimization by vBSEO 3.3.2