I am hungry tonight; I haven't been this hungry in weeks, and I can't stop thinking about food. I actually gave myself permission to go on a mini-rampage, since I don't have anything in the house that's actually off plan. I went way above my usual goal for carbs, but I'm still just this side of my calorie goal for the day.
I'm just scared that this is the first step of a backslide; it always goes like this for me. Eat well, lose some weight, get hungry, eat a little more, and it just keeps going. I don't want to stop losing, and I CAN'T gain again. I can't ever let myself get back to my highest weight. Shoot, I'm aiming to get out of the 200s and never see them again.
I have been eating very low calorie trying to keep my weight falling off; I may have to up the calories a bit and just accept a slower rate of loss. It might also be TOM, but I'm not sure because I've never been regular. I just....I don't want to binge tonight or ever again.
Boyfriend is working overnights now and I'm very lonely and bored. That's probably not helping.
All right chicks. Great talk. Thanks for letting me vent.