You guys...I have been gone almost all summer. And, by gone, I mean at least 80% off the bandwagon. I went and did exactly what I told myself I wasn't going to do: let a few vacations put everything "out of sight, out of mind". It was a lot harder to get back on track after I gave myself so much slack. I'd stopped counting calories "temporarily" while on vacation...always my first mistake! I also stopped weighing myself..."temporarily" of course. Another mistake. I have learned that I slip way too easily back into a lazy mindset when it comes to accountability. I got a little too cocky with my ability to turn it on and off at my own will, but it's just not strong enough yet. Working on that.
Right now, I am already starting to feel that familiar discomfort in re-emerging bulges, heaviness, bloat and tightness in several places, especially the belly area, and I think that may have been what finally snapped my mind back into awareness. I feel very large and dumpy and cumbersome in my own skin. I hate this feeling, and I never wanted to feel it again. I'm hoping I have caught myself before spiraling too far down the rabbit hole, but I know from a very unfortunate glimpse at a scale a couple weeks ago that I have done at least 10-12 pounds of damage just in the past two months. I haven't stepped back on a scale since that afternoon, and I have literally been eating at my guilt since, so I'm a little scared to look.
So...I need a little light shown my way to find the path back out of this darkness....words of wisdom, favorite motivating quotes, uplifting advice, stern talking-to's, anything. Just trying to get back into the swing of things and get back onto 3FC and MFP to get back on track. If nothing else, I just wanted to pop out of the shadows and make a declaration, to myself as much as everyone else, that I know I need to come back. With that being said, hello again everyone!
As for updating my current weight, I think I will stick to Wednesdays being my official weigh-in days, so it looks like Judgement Day will be on the 4th for me...two days before my birthday on Friday. I am nowhere near where I wanted to be by my birthday, and even farther away from where I wanted to be for my October "Time Capsule" Challenge, but I keep telling myself that at least I'm coming back now instead of waiting until I put all the weight back on and having to start from scratch all over again like last time! That has to count for something, right? Ha.
Here's to nipping this horrible rut in the bud before it gets much farther out of hand!