Taking Responsibility
 

I have spent the last 2-3 years frustrated with my weight, but unwilling to make changes (insanity!) so in vicious cycles of gaining and losing over and over. Now I am over my old high weight from 15 years ago. Why it had to get this out of control, I cannot explain. But I do know that when the calendar said June 1st and I decided to weigh myself and was 300 pounds something felt like it died inside of me. I never thought I would get to this point. In the past I have been that "healthy fat person"! (What a joke!) Now my feet hurt, my back hurts, I have had to start bp meds, I hate how my body looks. Anyways, on that same day I became good and ready to make changes - sick and tired of being fat. I did this to myself and only I can fix me. I am responsible for what goes into my mouth. I have been counting calories and eating low carb and lost a lot of weight in the last 2 weeks. It will slow down though.

I read an excerpt recently that went like this: It is not hard. Don’t you dare tell us this is hard. Giving up heroin is hard. Beating cancer is hard. Drinking your coffee black. Is. Not. Hard. You won’t get any coddling, and you won’t get any sympathy for your “struggles”... Not that I drink my coffee black, but you get the spirit behind the words! I will have the self-respect and will-power to see this thing through. There will be days I don't feel like doing the right thing but I need to remember that my feelings are what got me into this mess. I am an emotional eater and the truth is that those feelings in the past that said food would fill the need were liars.

Happy to be back at 3FC and looking forward to getting to know many of you and getting and giving support.

-Nora

P.S. I am hungry for the first time in a couple years! Seriously, I had forgotten what physical hunger felt like.

Go you! You're ready, and now, you'll do this! I know you can!
PS Love your signature quote! I'm fighting the battle again, but this time I feel much more victorious!

Welcome! It's awesome that you realized you have to make changes!! That's the most important thing!! Good luck to you!!

Welcome! I understand where you are having been there myself. I look forward to your post. At times I think that this is hard. One of my favorite quotes is something like " Being overweight is hard. Losing weight is hard. Maintaining is hard. Choose your hard." So far, I have not found anything harder than the consequences of carrying around 100+ extra pounds.

Welcome back, Nori. It's very inspirational to read a post where someone is stepping up and taking responsibility for both their current condition and the need to change it. There are many, many posters who feel the same way, but your post had a clarity and eloquence to it that resonated with me.

I'll look forward to reading more about your journey.

Welcome back and good luck on your journey!!

I can so relate to your post. Thank you for sharing.

I love that! "Choose your hard." This extra weight is such a burden. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. I'm so ready to shed this burden. I didn't mean to take away, or diminish the fact that this will be a struggle. Obviously, there will be days that are more difficult than others, but something about that bit I read, sank home for me. I have never had to quit heroin (although food addiction might be right up there with that!) or fight cancer, so it put it in perspective for me - this isn't the hardest thing to overcome. It doesn't mean that there will not be many hard battles!

Make it a good day!

Hi Nori and welcome back . I remember you :) I always loved reading your post . I believe we did a Biggest Loser challenge and might have been on the same team along with a lady name Doragone . We are both on the Blue Team we are into a 4th week . Would love for you to come over and visit with us . We could use some positive company always . I can relate to your story been there and done that . Just glad you have gotten back on the trail of victory ! Good Luck and great to see you here :)

:welcome2: back to you! I love your words and knowledge... I do agree and understand! and Getting Older.. Yikes... Its like our bodies just tell us... Enough is Enough! :) Glad you are on the winning side and I can't wait to see your loss history!!! :)

Welcome back Nori! Your post really resonates with me! I'm glad you're back and look forward to getting to know you!

Ah, I do remember you!! And Doragone! I haven't had a lot of time to peruse the forums yet - just knew to come right back here to the 100lb club when I was ready! I used to really enjoy those Biggest Loser team competitions. I need to get onto a team next round.

Thanks everyone! I appreciate the warm welcome! :hug: