Thanks
Jane.
I think what is really helping me through everything is that I've managed to change my mindset in the past year. I obviously want to be thinner and have worked so hard for that, but the only reason I've continued to make progress is because I'm focusing on my health first and foremost. I've got the reasons so ingrained in my head now that I think making healthy choices about 90% of the time and indulging for the other 10% is going to stick around for a long time.
I think one of my biggest fears is that this will all become a slippery slope, that I'll eventually use the pregnancy (and the incredible hunger that comes with it!) as an excuse to throw all reason out the window and indulge non-stop. But not only is that not good for me, it's not good for the baby.
So everything feels like a delicate balance right now. I have to gain, but in a healthy way. It's tough to wrap my mind around as I've spent all my life believing gains=bad!
Elvislover- thank you.
I do think the gain will be open for discussion as I go. I'm going to do my best to listen to my body and reason through the choices laid out before me, and if I have to make adjustments according to lab results and the doctor's advice, so be it. I guess I can't complain about getting to eat extra.
And good luck to your efforts, I've been thinking of you!
Lyn- Thanks!
I do realize that a lot of things are just going to happen, that another human is growing inside me along with building a placenta and what-not. I think I'll be ok and will just accept what comes, and I'll be good with it as long as I'm eating healthy throughout it all.
This is my first visit with my new OB-GYN so I think it'll take some time for us to get a feel for each other. She actually seemed alarmed when I told her I belonged to weight loss organization so I had to reassure her that I'm not currently trying to lose weight!
This is only my second pregnancy and I'm hoping it'll be my first successful one (I miscarried in my first trimester last year), so I know I've still got a lot of learning and wonderful new experiences ahead of me.
veggiedawg- Thanks!
My doctor warned me that the biggest gains happen in the last trimester. I realize most of it is baby, placenta, amniotic fluid, and extra blood so that's pretty much out of my control.
I guess what I fear most is that, like I've mentioned to others, I'll use the pregnancy and eventual cravings an excuse to go overboard. On the other hand, my husband is worried I won't be eating enough since I've worked so hard to lose in the past year so I've been working on reassuring him. I think I'll feel more reassured myself once I get the results on my gestational diabetes test and get to speak with my high-risk doctor.
Nope, no real cravings or aversions yet (aside from extreme hunger at times), although the smells . . . THE SMELLS! Everything smells like, well . . . I'd rather not say.
Bargoo- I agree!
Mozzy- Thanks!
That's another reason I'm looking forward to speaking with the additional doctor about the high-risk issues; I can get a second opinion. I wonder if my age has something to do with it? Regardless I'll be taking this one day at a time.