Looking in the mirror this morning before getting dressed. Everything is so loose and wobbly. It was just gross. My boobs looked like the after photo of a mountain that has just had a landslide. My neck is so wrinkled and I have a freaking turkey wattle that wobbles and wiggles. My gut ... well that is just so sad. old stretch marks that look like tire tracks across my midsection, it hangs down past where a stomach should be. But that isn't so bad now because it partially covers those lovely bubbled out pockets of fat on the inside of my thighs.
So I am doing all this weight loss to be healthy and happy with my body and all I can think is - wow - if this is how gross I look after loosing 90, what the heck is it all going to look like after losing another 70????
I really try to look at this as an adventure - I know that in the end I will have surgery for all the parts I possibly can. But how, in the meantime, do I not let something like this morning screw with the psyche?
I will never get undressed in front of another human being again.