More support, I love it. This site has actually been immensely helpful already and I definitely plan to continue accessing you wonderful people. I wonder about that sunlight thing sometimes, I do live in Seattle
I think that just not having a physical support network wears on me sometimes. Many people don't understand. I have friends, just none that I felt I could call at 10 PM last night a total wreck and have them rush over to hug me. I probably know a couple people that would have, but they weren't the ones I wanted to see. (I'm an introvert, if that sounds rude you might be an extrovert because it's really not supposed to be, I promise!)
Another part of why being alone is so hard for me, and this would feel like over sharing except one of you told me to! Is that technically my family are all still out there for the most part, they've just abandoned me. So it's not just that I don't have anyone, it's that anyone I had doesn't want me or doesn't appreciate and let me be myself. This is of course very complicated and involves several of my own personal decisions, but it's still hard.
I guess at the end of the day I don't really want advice, I just want to know there are others out there like me who struggle because when I feel like I'm the only one it's sometimes hard to care and continue the struggle.
But aside from a good night's sleep, I have more good news this morning: I HAVE A SIGNATURE!! WOOT, ticker!