So I joined 3FC about 3 weeks ago, hovered for a while and then last week after some AHA moments including a comment from a friend I haven’t seen for a long time, enough was enough. So last Sunday, I went to the grocery store, restocked my fridge, purchased a food journal and unearthed my gym shoes. So in summary:
Food: stayed w/in limits 5/7 days. The 2 days I was not on track were both over the weekend & I ended up going to parties. Despite my determination, I just could not control myself. Actually, that’s wrong. I could, if I had wanted to. I know that. I know that I’m stronger than I give myself credit for but it was easier to turn off my mental calorie counter.
Lesson learned: For now, controlled environments are best. The 1st party I could have easily avoided and I honestly believe if I hadn't gone off on Friday, it would have been easier to stay on track the rest of the weekend. Thank God, there are no parties on the horizon.
Gym: So I worked out 5 times this week. 2 of those time were at home. I did the PX90 Cardio and Just Dance 4. The other times I went to the gym, I stuck to the spin bike & the elliptical. I actually also tried a Step class.
Lesson learned: So I tend to either go to the gym or not work out at all so I’m super proud that I actually did some home workouts. I’m also glad that my workouts were more varied and I had so much fun w/ the Just Dance. This week I really want to incorporate some strength training. I actually have customized schedule from a personal trainer….somewhere… If only I could find it…..
Spiritual: Not so good. For me, this is a huge component of my journey to a better healthier happier me. It’s also a big reason why’ve I felt so lost these past few years.
Lesson learned: It’s a WIP and I have to willing to work on it everyday, not just when I’m in need or it’s easy or with people or convenient.
Mental: I’ve had some really good ‘positive self talk’ chats w/ myself this week. I reminded myself (usually in the middle of a tough workout!) that I was a strong, resourceful, smart woman and that what I was going thru was not only necessary but would pay off. However, I also had some moments where I let my condescending negative inner voice speak up and say some not so nice things. At one point yesterday, I almost convinced myself that this process, this journey was not worth it.
Lesson learned: It’s so easy to berate myself. So so easy to be negative and at times abusive to myself *cringes*. I honestly don’t understand it & I think maybe it’s time I tried to. Meanwhile, I’m going to cont the positive self talk. And I am NOT going to quit.
Weight Loss: I lost 2.5lbs this week and I was bummed yesterday when I saw that. I’ve been yo-yoing bet. 245-249 for the past 7 mo. so it’s hard for me to see any number above 245 as a success. Also as someone who’s a Re-loser, I have this mentality that any ‘old’ weight that I lose doesn't count since I shouldn't have gained it in the 1st place.
Lesson learned: I got over myself. Today I’m excited I’m down 2.5lbs and can’t wait to see what this week brings. I’m an impatient loser and I hate losing slowly. In the past, I've had weeks where I’d calorie restrict or work out like crazy and lose 5lbs a week. Of course, the next week I’d gain it back because I’d binge. I need to get used to the idea of losing slowly but surely and building long lasting habits.
So that’s me! I honestly don’t know if anyone will read this but putting words to this process is really a great tool that’s helped me in the past and I plan to continue to do it as a way to keep myself accountable.
Is anyone else new or starting over? Do you find that the 1st few weeks are the hardest?
Have a lovely week guys & gals!