I have been hitting an emotional wall lately, since I got back from vacation in June. I got down to 286 lbs, but I am back to 297 lbs. I've been bouncing back and forth since the end of June. Has anybody else hit something like this? It's not so much about doing everything perfectly, it's more about not having the steam to do it any more.
I can't seem to get it all together, especially in the diet area.
- What I'm supposed to be doing is keeping really low on the carbs, because I'm type 2 diabetic and I'm not on any meds. I would really like to eat less than 40 gm/day, but I'd be pleased if I kept it under 80 gm/day. Instead, I am bouncing between 80 gm and 250 gm/day.
- What I really want to do is keep calories down below 1800 gm/day. I can't seem to eat less than 2400. A lot of this overeating is anxiety-driven. Life seems to feel out-of-control right now. Health issues, work and inadequate income issues, overspending teenager issues, caregiver issues with my mother...it all adds up to stress I don't care to shoulder at all.
- The stress and health issues compound the other factor I'm struggling with, getting adequate sleep. Menopause (hot flashes), teens that are up late and disruptive, trying to get work done late into the night. I just can't get more than six hours of sleep per night. And when that happens, I always overeat to keep up my energy.
What I'm doing right is exercising two hours a day. Fortunately I manage a small fitness studio now and can exercise at work. I'm starting to study to get my personal training certificate. It's easier to focus on the exercise now, and that's a first for me!
If only I could get my mojo back with the diet. I was doing so well for the year, down 35 lbs. But I know this plateau and regain is not the regular sort of plateau adjustment my body does every time I lose another 10% body weight. It's psychological and situational. And I just can't seem to find my traction for success now. Hoping with lower temps by the end of the week that I won't feel so hot all the time and can get some good sleep again. And then I'll be able to cut back on the inappropriate food choices.
I don't want to go back to the mindless eating of the past. I don't want to regain any more weight!!!! I've been on the slow and steady path for a reason, to make the right choices become how I live. I am so disheartened at how quickly I've fallen off the path I've maintained for the last five years.
I am developing a plan of attack here. There are things I need to do to get me back on the path.
- Find a new endocrinologist and have new labs done.
- Clear the refrigerator/pantry of foods that I do not want to eat.
- Set up and maintain a regular sleep schedule again.
If I can just get those things done, then I can move on to tweaking other stuff. It would be lovely to find a way to create more energy too. Maybe I need to take my vitamins again.