Revenge Weight Gain?
I just read the thread about revenge weight loss, and it made me think about how a lot of the weight I gained was "revenge weight gain." I gained a lot of weight a few years ago and kept it on until 1 1/2 years ago. There were initially medical reasons for the start of my weight gain, but I think that I continued to gain weight because of an emotional reaction to traumatic relationships that had ended with a few people (some of the ended relationships were related and some were not). As I gained weight and began to look different, I almost felt a sense of security - kind of like I was going into hibernation or hiding. I was morphing into a different person who my past enemies no longer knew - my outer appearance was becoming as unrecognizable as I hoped my inner self was becoming to my former friends. I didn't want them to know me anymore. It was like wearing a disguise or a costume of fat. The phenomenon of becoming more invisible the larger I got confirmed my theory that I was safe from recognition by foes - people simply didn't notice me anymore and I liked it. However, soon the health effects of my gain began to take their toll, and the realization that I didn't like the "fat version of me" in the mirror also prompted me to want to start losing weight. I also realized that I wasn't fooling anyone by changing my outer appearance - people saw me and knew who I was. I realized that the important place to change and safeguard was my heart and soul - not disguise it - but secure it. Feeling emotionally secure is all about strengthening the inside not the outside.
Anyone else gain revenge weight?
My Reboot Journey Weight: 174 - February 7, 2016
My Lowest Journey Weight: 148 - July 2012
Original Journey Starting Weight: 212 - June 2010
-I AM MY OWN CHEERLEADER!
Last edited by guacamole; 09-10-2012 at 03:24 PM.